18th October 2020

Good evening, folks! I wrote 300 something words tonight and did a little editing. I was working on the vampire stuff and I’ve got to remember I’m not just rewriting it. If I can work elements of the previous draft in, then I need to work them in. I’m going to loose some good content if I don’t do so.

I have began thinking about my NaNo project for this year. I am going to go for the novel and not another short story collection. In preparation I’ve put a list together of movies and tv shows that I think will help (with a little help from friends on Facebook).

Now, that list may seem to have a lot of variation on it but for the project I’ve got in mind I think this list, as well as some of my established influences like Alien, Aliens, Predator, and others, will aid in bringing this story together.

I’ve had a strange day. One which I did something that I need to do more of that emotionally drains me. I am going to be vague about it, but I will say it’s something that has a flip side to. It’s a driving force for me to be better. I hid mental health problems for a long time, and had them longer than I realise. Now I’m dealing with them. Some days are harder than others, but I’m learning how to recognise when I’m slipping into a downer and I’m getting better at stopping it and figuring out why I started slipping.

I will not let my mental health dictate my life.

I’m still a little reluctant to speak about this. Mental health is still a topic people don’t want to discuss but so many people have it, and it’s something that me are encouraged to ignore by society. It shouldn’t be ignored. I got help, and I’m better for it.

Don’t be scared of asking for help.

Good Evening 16th October 2020

Good afternoon/evening folks. I’m writing an end of day post a little earlier today as I mentioned earlier my buddy Stefan is coming over and I know I won’t write it later because it’ll probably be later on in the evening when I get the time.

Despite not having much time today I managed to get 1466 words on Penal Earth written in about 2 hours. I’m super happy about that. I think I’m on the right path with it, it feels right anyway.

Myself and Stefan playing Mario Kart Deluxe. This is video one.

Tomorrow I won’t have much time to write, nor will I Sunday, but I’ll try and find time to get words down. Having written so much today in not a lot of time is encouraging. I know I can get the words out, its just not letting my head defeat me when I sit down to write.

This is the second video in this series.

I’ve included a couple of the videos of me and Stefan playing Mario Kart. I hope you enjoy and consider giving Stefan’s Daily Gaming a follow on Facebook. He’s a bloody good friend that has gone above and beyond to be there for me this year and I couldn’t wish for a better friend.

I’m having a bit of a down day, so I’m looking forward to hanging out with him and beating his arse at Mario Kart 😀

Dizzy not in the way at all!

I am determined to sit down one day next week and get my NaNoWriMo project decided and prepped. I was going to write a novel, but I’m having second thoughts and might do another short story collection. I might even do prep work for both and see how I feel as we get closer to NaNo.

Right, I hope everyone has had a good day. I’m off to murder a pizza!

Good Morning 16th October 2020

I’ve had a strange couple of days. I’ve not had work today and yesterday but had an urgent matter to see to yesterday that was unexpected but that took up the morning. Then in the afternoon I prepped for a weekly appointment. I’ve been trying to do this the right way, which means its a couple of hours at the least I dedicate to it, and I think it’s really beginning to pay off. And yes, I’m going to be vague about it.

So after all that, I was a bit beat. So I didn’t write yesterday. The day before I didn’t write much either because I fell asleep. I did have a productive meeting via Discord with fella ML’s from the Kent region for NaNoWriMo. It was a lot of fun and I’ve not laughed that hard in a very long time. We did also get some bits and pieces sorted out for this years NaNoWriMo as well. It’s going to be a strange one as we won’t be having any write-ins at all. NaNo HQ have said that there will be none, so there will be none. It’s just not worth the risk, and I fully agree. If you’ve been reading this blog for a long time then you’ll know how much I love going to write-ins. I think they are one a great way of being reminded that even though writing is a solitary act, for the most of it, we’re not the only ones doing it. But, we don’t have them this year so we’re working on ways to make it a memorable year for people while doing it all virtually.

In other news from my little corner of the world, the paperback for Corona-Nation St is now out! I have my copy and I’m super happy with it. I’d given up on this story until after I’d moved back to my parents and started to get myself sorted. Matthew Cash, the ruler of Burdizzo Books, posted a reminder about the submission call and it spurred me to revisit my piece. I had a complete story but it just didn’t feel right. So I looked at it, and ended up rewriting the ending, which changed the entire tone of the story. I hope it works. I feel much happier with the story as it is now. I did bleed into the story, but that’s why I think it works. Although I didn’t literally do what the character does I channeled some of my feelings and emotions into it.

So pretty 😊

The pre-order for It Came From The Darkness is also available now! Like Corona-Nation St, this is a charity anthology full of flash fiction. This was an invite only and I am so proud to have been invited to it.

So, please check both of these out.

I’ve got an errand to run today before Stefan from Stefan’s Daily Gaming comes over for a few hours to game. If you haven’t checked out his stuff, please do! He’s a great guy and a very dear friend.

So I’ve got a couple of hours this afternoon to write. So I am going to try and make the most of that time.

10th October 2020

Good evening folks! I am just about to go to bed, but needed to get this post written first.

I have been slacking off too much recently. I’ve been sitting on the path as opposed to walking along it. That’s not just writing. Outside of work I’ve stagnated a little this last couple of weeks. I’ve written all but one day this month, so that’s a positive. I’ve been able to my hand in but I’ve got frustrated at myself for not pushing harder. Today, I did that. I did a red pen edit on two short stories that make up a big part of my zombie book, one more to go. I also wrote 1101 words and finished off the rewrite of a vampire story.

I want to maximise my time in the next week. So I’m going to try again to get a to-do list made up, well more of a plan for the week. I know what hours I’m working for the day job, and I know I haven’t got much planned for when I’m not at work (aside from some gaming with Stefan at Stefan’s Daily Gaming). Which means I will have a lot of time to get caught up on what I need to get done. I will be setting some time aside to prepare for an appointment next week, and will be doing a couple of non-writing related tasks that need doing, but I will still have plenty of time to write in the next seven days. I might even post what my writing plans are for the week on here so I’ve got some accountability come the end of the week when I post next Sunday.

I love it when I notice I hit a milestone number dead on 😊

For now, it is my bed time. I had an early start and I am very ready for my bed.

Good night, all! And remember, being kind isn’t a weakness. It’s one of the finest strengths you can have.

9th of October 2020

Good evening folks, how are we all doing tonight?

I have written 889 words today, and wrote almost 500 yesterday. I think I could have pushed a bit more to get that 1k hit but at gone nine it’s time to start winding down for the night.

I wrote yesterday about failing each day, and it’s a post I stand by. I was feeling a little down, but not massively. I did feel like I wasn’t hitting targets I should be hitting, and I do still feel that. But I am winning each day as well. Every day that I write, I’m winning. Every day I’m thinking about the stories I’m working on. Figuring out where I’ve gone wrong and how to fix that, it’s a win.

I was trying to take a semi-professional selfie and got pounced on by our mini-panther.

Stepping up is something I need to do. I’ve got three short stories being released in three different anthologies by the end of the year, and at the risk of getting some grief from fellow writers, I haven’t tried that hard to find places to submit. Two of the anthologies were invite only from publishers I’ve worked with before, and the third story is from also from a publisher I’ve had the pleasure of working with before. So, I really need to step up finding places to submit too. I am where I am because I’ve written pieces that editors have liked. Now, it’s hard for me to write that because there’s still a part of me that thinks I suck, but my friends yell at me if I say that. And with some of what has gone on this year I’ve had help snapping my head out of the mindset that I am nothing.

I made the mistake in placing these blankets on my printer, which Dizzy decided was worthy of being her throne. (that’s a printer, not a throne!)

This next year I’ve got a lot planned, I hope I can pull it all off. My biggest problem is discipline. I get easily distracted and need to get better at sitting in the chair and just getting the work done.

I’ve got everything I need to progress. The only thing holding me back, is me.

Failing Each Day

I fail at writing each day. Literally, I don’t hit the goals I know I can hit. I struggle to not just pop Netflix on and fall into movies or TV series I’ve seen a hundred times before.

I fail daily.

But I endure daily as well. When I don’t write I feel guilt which then pushes me through. Some times it takes a couple of days to get over a slump but I always do.

Each day, no matter how hard the words are fighting me I will get the words out one way or another.

Keep. Fighting. For. That. Dream.

No matter how much you may feel like giving up, don’t. I’ve been writing since my early twenties. At the moment I do feel like a failure because I haven’t achieved more. But I’m learning the reasons why I haven’t gotten more done. I’m also at the point where I feel like I’m ready to take the next step.

If I was true to myself, no matter how much of a failure I can feel at times, I still haven’t quit. If I was going to, o would have done a long time ago.

And I remind myself, I’ve got stories being published in three anthologies this last quarter of the year. It’s been a year where writing has been severely on the back burner at times, and I still have three pieces being released the last part of this year.

Even if you’re just getting rejections, keep going. You will get acceptances as long as you learn your trade, grow and improve.

Never. Give. Up.

1st Of October 2020

Good evening folks, today I’ve written 1406 words after a few days of not writing anything. I’ve been a bit down for the last week or so, and I needed a couple of days to work through it.

This year has been hard, and although I’ve got out of the hole I was in with help from a number of people and I’ve got someone who is driving me to be the best I can be.

I’m not saying any of this for sympathy. I’m saying it because it’s something that has affected writing. It knocked me off it for a few days while I was focussing on myself. Three days without writing, then today I knocked out 1406 words in about two hours. Those words weren’t easy but they did begin to flow nicely as I got into the scene I was working on.

I was easily distracted, so have lost some of the discipline that I had built up. So, over the next couple of days I’ll be working on getting that determination back.

Now, to the first image in this post. If you’ve been reading my blog over the last week you’ll have seen the announcement for the Corona-Nation St anthology, well the pre-order is now live! It is doing really well, so please hit the link and check this out. The proceeds go to charity, and there’s a hell of a good list of writers who have pieces in here. Here’s the list again:

Matthew Cash
Alys Daddi 
Dani Brown
Lisa Presley 
Ian Woodhead
James Jobling 
Dale Parnell
Ian Davies 
Norbert Gora
Penny Jones
M. B. Feeney 
Matt Humphries 
Richard Archer 
Tom Johnstone 
Paul Hiscock 
Richmond A. Clements
Patrick Flaherty
Patrick R. McDonagh
Peter Germany 
Ryan Simons
Al Barz
Jacob Prytherch
David Court
Mark Cassell

My story ‘The Wank Diaries” is a story that means a lot to me. I rewrote the ending after a major change in my life and it was this story that helped me get my head back into writing again. I said in my post the other day that I bled onto the page in it. I really did. I channeled a lot of what I was going through at the time into it, not literally but I used how I felt by putting that sense of despair I was feeling into the character. The entire ending was rewritten and the tone of the story changed a lot, and for the better I think.

Burdizzo Books who are putting this book out have done a lot of work on this anthology and I can’t wait to get my hands on a copy.

I’m going to end this post by pointing out that NaNowriMo is a month away. A month….. Is everyone who is taking part getting exited? I know I am.

Have a good one folks.