Sometimes I Sit….

Sometimes I sit to write a blog post which isn’t my normal journal entry style that I tend to do. I like to give a little more once in a while, and I’m trying to get better at expressing my opinions. But more often than not I’m sitting looking at a blank screen while I wait for a subject, or even just s few words, to grab me. This post is a prime example. I had a good few minutes of thinking ‘fuck, I’ve got nothing’ but that also happens when I’m writing as well. I’ll look at that blank screen and my mind goes blank.

It’s both bizarre and frustrating at the same time. I know I’ve got the words there but so often they just do not want to play ball. This is where being in a good state of mind helps. If I’m feeling pretty good about myself then I can normally get rolling nicely. It’s when I’m having a bad head day that I struggle.

Thankfully those days and moments are few and far between now. I’ve got enough I can work on that it one idea is flowing well I can dive into another, and I’m finding that brainstorming is really beginning to help when I’ve got nothing coming out when I’m trying to write.

This doesn’t always work, sometimes it’s editing that I can get stuck into, other times nothing helps. But the key is I’m finding more ways to be productive when I’m not able to write.

Good Morning, Sunday 18th April 2021

Hey folks, I hope we’re all well today? I have had an epically bad nights sleep, so had a lay in to try and catch up on the lost sleep. I got a little but the extended time in bed has given me back aches, so, yeah.

But anyway, onto the words. As I didn’t get up early I’m behind where I was hoping to be but I’ve still got a nice few hours to work. It’ll likely be all editing today. I’ve got a little prep work to see to before I start editing but once that’s done it’s going to make things much easier with the story later on.

I’ve also got to prep for the next week’s writing as well. I’m going to have to be somewhat fluid with this though as if I have a couple of really good days editing I could be done with Penal Earth before the week ends, but that said I’m also kind of tempted to just stick to a daily target and not exceed that too much. That way I’m not blowing through my energy too early on in the week.

I’m realising I’m feeling very scatter-brained this morning. My thoughts are a little all over the shop, which is going to make editing fun! But I’m going to try. Even if it’s just a chapter I get done.

Right, I’m going to get started with the work for the day. I hope you all have a fantastic day!

Raven watching the world

Good Afternoon, 16th April 2021

Gooooooooood afternoon, folks! How are we all doing?

Yesterday I edited 10379 words on Penal Earth, and today I’ve got 9728 words edited.

I was going to hold off till next month to start on this edit and focus on three unfinished short stories the rest of this month, but when I started struggling to write I knew I had to do something to get myself back on track. I made a small start on Wednesday with 563 words edited. If I can do 10k or so a day, I’ll be done a week today. I’m not gonna bust my guts to get it done by then, I’m going to aim to have it done by the end of the month.

I did get in a situation where I was stuck on what to write. I couldn’t get my head around any of the three short stories that I wanted to work on and the story that is talking to me I’m not sure if I’m ready to work on it yet. I don’t want to just dive in and hope it works out, I think I’ve got a decent tale to tell in a setting that I think is going to be one I can play in for a few stories. So I want to think things out a little more before I just dive in.

Right, I’m going to wrap it up there. Good day’s process. I’m working a lot of making changes in my life so I’m happier in myself, and I think the changes are going to be a good start in moving forward.

Have a good one, folks!

Good Morning, 15th April, 2021

Good Morning! How are we all doing today?

Yesterday was not a good writing day. I felt a little down and normally writing can snap me outta it, but nada. I looked at three different short stories that I’m working on and nothing. I tried writing something new, but nothing came forth. So after about half an hour of trying I gave up. So I napped and watched The Simpsons.

After I’d showered and eaten though, a scene came to mind for a short story that I wrote years ago and am planning on rewriting. It was a piece of dialogue between two characters and it just kept growing. So I grabbed my laptop and wrote it out, 609 words. Then, although it was getting a little late I wanted to get some editing done on Penal Earth. I was going to wait till May to get started on this but that urge to do something was still there. I also think there was a little guilt as well at not being able to get anything done earlier in the day.

I always feel better when I’ve got work done. Okay, I still slept crappy but that’s just my life at the moment. But I woke up feeling ready to get a shit tonne done today. I’m not gonna go mad, and I’m gonna try something later that I haven’t done in ages and see how that goes but I do feel good right now. So I’m gonna work till about 10am and then get a few pieces around the house done and then I’ll see about doing a bit more with the words.

Raven watching the dust particles in the sunlight (and yes, she’s been bouncing around trying to catch them!)

Right, I’m going to start with some editing. I’m not sure what I want to write that’s new this morning, so I’ll start with editing and see how I go.

Have a great day, folks!

11th April 2021 (Draft Done!)

This draft of Black Blood is DONE!!!!!! 1711 words its taken, and yes a ton of editing later on but it’s a completed draft!

I’ve also got my next weeks writing mapped out. So, happy writer here!

Onto the next project!

Good Morning, 6th April 2021

Morning folks! How are we all doing today?

I’m a little tired but focussed. I have work later today so simple goals today. Basically a blog post and 500 words on Black Blood. As always I’m not going to stop at 500 if I’m rolling, but if its like pulling teeth then I will.

My head feels pretty straight again now. I feel I’m back on the right track again, and honestly I feel more focussed and capable then in a very long time. It’s nice having this week mapped out so I can just look at my planner and I know what I’ve got going on. It’s helped setting modest goals once more and I can even see an end in sight for Black Blood!

Right! That’s enough procrastination. Words don’t wrangle themselves.

Always inspiring

5th of April 2021 (2)

Hey Folks! How are we all doing?

I’ve been having a tough time recently, I’ve felt very down but now I’m pulling myself out of it, with the help of my loved ones.

So, today after work I’ve written 500 words, planned out my coming week. Fitted a noticed board in my office, and had a rearrange, tidy, and a little file organisation. That was all after a morning at work as well. I’m feeling like now I was two months ago, and ready to get back on track!

I’ve got matters in my personal life that will be my primary attention, but when I’m feeling like this it’s going to be something that I know I can do!

5th of April 2021

I’ve taken the last few days off from writing for personal reasons. Those reasons will be something that I will be dedicating a lot of time to in the future, but I won’t be mentioning here at all.

With writing, I’m going to be aiming for a half an hour a day for the foreseeable future. I’ve fallen off track but need to get back on it carefully. Looking at my work shifts this week I think they’ll be conducive to easing me back on track. I may ease back on Black Blood as I think I need something a little more compact to work on, something with not as many threads to tie together.

Right, I’ve got to go into work shortly so I’m gonna wrap it here.

1st of April, 2021

Good morning! It is very, very morning here in the UK, about 5:30am when I start writing this post.

A couple of hundred words yesterday before work. I’d planned more but got sidetracked. I’d like to say I’m going to get a nice chunk of words done today, but I don’t think I will. After work I think I’m going to have a nap! I’m about 2 weeks into very bad sleep patterns and it’s really beginning to take a toll on me now. I’m okay, I will prevail! But a few more hours of sleep would be nice.

I’ve got to think about my goals for this month. I think finishing this draft of Black Blood should be one of them, probably the priority. I can feel it’s endgame building and I think I can bring it home.

Something I’ve been doing this last few weeks is listening to First and Only by Dan Abnett. This is the first book in the Gaunts Ghosts series, which is probably my favourite book series. It’s great catching up with the story and characters who are long dead. But it’s also a reminder of how other people write. I’ve not read much the last eighteen months and most of what I have is done in different ways to that of how Abnett writes these books. I’m loving the depth he’s putting into this story but also realising that I’m not that writer. Yes, I need to put mire depth into my work but I don’t think I’m the type of writer (at the moment anyway) that will build background for a setting that is a smaller scene in the scale of the book.

Obviously I don’t find anything wrong with this, it’s just different styles. With my work I’m a little more direct, I think is the best way to put it. I like a story that gives plenty to the reader but it’s not my style at the moment. I’d like to put more of that in. I look at something like Black Blood and I can see ways for me to fit those details in, and I want to. It just won’t be world building to the extent I’m seeing in Abnett’s work. That said, the Gaunts Ghosts books are Warhammer 40k novels and there’s a lot of world building to be done.

Right, i feel like I’m beginning to ramble, and I’ve got to think about getting into work.

So, have a great day folks! Go for that dream and stuff anyone who tries to take it away from you.

Good Morning, 31st of March 2021

Good morning, folks. For the second day in a row I’m up by 7am. I’m pretty sure this is because the clocks changed so my body thinks 7am is 8am. Anyway, I’m up, have a cuppa tea and I’m almost ready for the day.

I’ve got work this afternoon, so I’m looking at what I can get done this morning. I’ve got a little googling for non-writing reasons but that’s just a quick look at something before I do a deeper dive later in the week when I have more time.

Yesterday I got a lot off my to-do list for the day but didn’t get any words worked. This morning I’m going to be working on Black Blood and get a little closer to the ending of that story. I’m itching to get back into the next draft of Penal Earth but I’d like to get this draft of Black Blood done first.

Dizzy rolling around in the dust ☺️

I do need to look at my goals for next month as well, and decide what I want done by May. So I’ll have a little think about that. I think I’ll lower my goals as the last two months I’ve not really hit the targets I’ve set out.

Right! I’m off to get some words done. I don’t want to be in a position where I’m pushing to hit my target for the day at the last minute.

Have an awesome day folks! It looks like it’s going to be another beautiful day here in my part of the UK, but lets not let the weather decide for us, lets make it an awesome day come rain or shine.

The supervisors making sure I cleaned their filter out properly!