At the start of the year I’d set myself a goal of averaging 500 words a day. In January I wrote an average of 508 words per day. So far this month I’m averaging 451 words per day. I’m pretty happy with this, especially as I’m kind of stuck on the three stories I’ve been working on mainly this year. I’ve got into a bad habit of getting stuck on, then moving to another one, and so on. It’s a bad cycle I’ve got myself sucked into. So I’ve taken a step back and I’m going to do a read through/edit of the three stories and see where I am with them all.
One of them was meant to be a submission piece, but I’m over 6000 words in and no where near the ending of the story. It’s also still very rough in far too many places and the deadline for the anthology is just around the corner. So there is no way I’d be able to get this wrapped up in time. I think the problem I had was I didn’t brainstorm before hand. With The Final Charge for the Sparks Anthology I spent a few days brainstorming and thrashed out some ideas. I didn’t do that this time round because I thought I had a solid idea, but I didn’t. Some of the problems I’ve run into I think I could have ironed out beforehand if I’d spent a few days working out my ideas. So come the next anthology I come across asking for submissions that’s what I’m going to do.
The other two stories I’m working on are a little different. Both of them are stories I’ve had running around my head for a few years, and have a draft or two already written of them. I’m hoping I can find the solutions to the problems I’ve getting at the moment by doing this read through/edit and see what I come up with. I do still want to make sure I get some words written each day, so I’ve started the third draft of a fan fiction piece I can dive in and out of when I just need to be getting some words down.
I am having a ton of ideas at the moment, but most of them are character based ones, some setting ones. So I’ve got to work on building storylines for these. I’ve got one book idea I love, but I need to do a hell of a lot of research for it.
I do have a lot going around my head, but I just need to get focused and crack on with it all.
I just wanted to post real quickly. I’m roughly sticking to my target of 500 words a day. Some days is a little higher, some days it’s a lot lower. The average is about that 500 a day goal though. I have written everyday this year so far though. Even a couple of nights like tonight where I’ve been writing much later than I normally would.
I got stuck on the story I was working on so I’ve switched to another one and the words have been flowing easier. I was writing a short story for an anthology I was going to submit to but I’ve got seriously stuck with it. I’m planning to look that over again and see what I can do with it.
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Up until recently I’ve rarely seen a horror movie that got under my skin. I say movie because I’ve only started delving into horror novels recently.
Aside from being grossed out by the odd scene here and there I’ve never really felt uncomfortable in a way that I now know horror should do. The first I noticed this was last year when I saw The Ritual. This is a film that was based on the novel by Adam Nevill. When I watched that film in the cinema I remember feeling a long way out of my comfort zone, but I still got through it and really enjoyed the movie (I’m looking forward to reading the book itself soon as well).
This week I’ve started listening to The Silence by Tim Lebbon. Tim Lebbon is a name I keep seeing pop up, and after meeting him at Bristol horror con last year and hearing him on a couple of podcasts (Three Guys With Beards & The Horror Show With Brian Keene) I knew I needed to check out some of his stuff. At the con I brought off him his book After The War, but knowing what a slow reader I was and that The Silence will be released as a movie sometime this year I believe, I wanted to read that one. So I got it on audiobook and although I’m only half way through it, it’s got under my skin. I thought The Ritual had an unsettling affect on me, but The Silence has gone deep. I almost stopped listening to it a quarter of the way through. It is so carefully crafted to trigger the readers own fears, even to the point where it feels like Lebbon’s written it just for me. Some of the elements here feel personal in a way I’ve not felt from a book before. That’s not to say books haven’t had an effect on me, because they have. Hell, a few have had me chocking up while others I’ve been punching them air in triumph and celebration.
As I was listening today I was thinking I’ll be finished it by the time I finished work at 3pm tomorrow, but I had to leave a day between the quarter way point of it and where I got to today, so I might resume it Monday and let the events in it sink in a little.
This book is really getting under my skin, and although it’s making me feel this way that’s what I feel is good horror. For horror to really work it has to make you feel how this is feeling. If I had to give this a rating right now it’ll easily be five stars.
I don’t have any ideas how this book will end, but I’ll be going in headfirst to find out.
Last year I wrote 151,370 words for the year. That averages down to about 414 words a day. That’s my lowest word count since 2013, but with the ups and downs we had last year there was times when something had to give and unfortunately writing was more often than not sacrificed.
At this time of year I think most people are looking at their goals moving forward and I’m no different. I’m not going for huge targets though, last year showed me that I really need to be able to adapt as the days come. My big word count goal of the year is quite simple, 500 words a day. I have got other plans for the year, but every time I put up a declaration I never follow through. So I’m going for the keeping it to myself till I’ve got the stuff done. So I won’t be announcing any dates that I plan to have things released on or anything like that.
I haven’t written my 500 words for the day yet, so I’m off to do that.
This last year has been a tough one. As a family we’ve had a lot of crap thrown our way this year. We’ve lost loved ones, and had issues of health pepper us amongst other difficulties life has a habit of throwing in our paths.
It has been a hard year, it’s not been harder than anyone else’s year. It’s been what it is. We’ve taken each day as it comes and in my opinion that is the best way to take life at times.
These things I won’t go into detail on. They are things that affect my family as well as myself and I don’t think it’s my place to talk in-depth about these events on my public blog.
One moment this year that hit me harder than I thought something of its nature could was the death of Linkin Park’s Chester Bennington. Although now I am really out of date with most music, I was a huge fan of Linkin Park when they first hit the scene. Their first two albums are two of my favourite albums ever, I didn’t even listen to that type of music until they came along. It’s music that speaks to me, but I didn’t realise how important it is to me until Bennington’s death this year. I mourned his death in a way that I haven’t for other public figures. I read a lot of Tom Clancy when I was in my late teens. I was a huge fan of Alan Rickman as well, and although it saddened me when they died it wasn’t like when Chester Bennington died. I immediately binge listened to the Linkin Park albums I had, and blitz their YouTube channel. It was only a month or so ago that I’ve stopped getting a lump in my throat when I hear his vocals. I realised a few weeks after his death that I felt like this because it was the first death of one of my icons. Someone who not only did I look up to and admire, but someone who spoke to me. I didn’t know the death of someone I didn’t know would hit me as hard as Chester Bennington’s death did.
I’ve had highs and lows with writing this year. A few projects I put a lot of time into have crashed and burned pretty badly. In particular I was quite demoralised by a zombie story I thought was going to be something good but it just didn’t pan out how I was expecting it too and it kind of gave me a bit of a confidence hit. I had done a lot of outlining for it, characters had been thought out and developed, but it just didn’t go right. I tried to rewrite it for NaNo, and it’s not bad. I’m happier with it now than I was initially but it’s not how I was expecting it to go. I think I can roll with how it’s changing, I just need to do some re-thinking on it.
Something I have learned is that it doesn’t matter whether I write with a pen and paper or straight into a word processor the words are the same. I wrote a first draft of a story I’ve got a lot of hope for by hand but was writing something else at the same time digitally and realised quickly that it didn’t matter how I wrote something, if I was in the mood to write it all came out the same. With this story in particular I’ve got to change a lot for the second draft. Like the zombie story I mentioned it came out different to how I envisioned it. The biggest problem is I’ve written it from only one point of view, and to tell the story I want to I need to do it from multiple POVs. I don’t think it’ll be difficult, but I want to let it sit for another month or two before I return to it. I’d like to get some more planning done for it as well.
The work with Owen is a little up in the air at the moment but I’m expecting to find out what’s happening early in the new year.
The highest points of this year for me have been getting two stories published. Both through charity anthologies from Burdizzo Books. The first one, The Final Charge was in Sparks: An Electric Anthology in October. The second was my take on The Three French Hens in this years 12 Days of Christmas 2017 Anthology. I am incredibly proud of both of these stories. They were a lot of fun to write and knowing the proceeds from both books go to good causes makes it feel even better than it does. The folks at Burdizzo Books are fantastic people as well, along with the group of writers they have around them.
It’s great to finally have my writing in print and has really fired me up and shown me that it’s not impossible. There is nothing stopping me except myself.
The last item I really want to talk about are a few of the people I’ve met this year. I attended a book launch for Sparks up in Walsall and met the head honcho and editor Matthew Cash as well as a couple of the other contributors. We later had another launch in my home town as Burdizzo Books’ other editor, Em Dehaney, is from Gravesend as well. Both launch parties were fantastic, I did a reading at both, although with the Gravesend one I was hit with a severe cold a few hours before and was incredibly unwell. I thought I was going to pass out during my reading, but it was still an amazing experience.
I also went to a few cons this year. Unfortunately DemonCon down in Maidstone has now come to an end. I was pleased to be at the last one in February, but will miss it. It’s the con were I first me Dan Abnett and his wife Nik, who are lovely people. I went to Birmingham Horror Con around that time as well, that was incredibly fun and I got to see my friends Cat and Lynx Raven again as well as Dave from From The Shadows. I also went to EGX with my buddy Stefan from Stefan’s Daily Gaming. Although I’m not a huge gamer this was a lot of fun as well. It was good seeing some great games and a lot of people who were in their element. Bristol Horror Con was my favourite of the year though. Not only did I see CL Raven and Dave (From The Shadows) again but I also went to a couple of panels. I spent a little time talking to Adam Millard and his wife in the VIP room. Seriously lovely people who were very encouraging of my own work and just fun to talk to. I also got the chance to speak to Tim Lebbon as well. Again, another awesome and encouraging person. I just hope the more of these I go to the more at ease I get speaking to all these fantastic people.
The horror community is really welcoming and seems to have a lot of heart to it. It’s definitely a place I feel at home it.
One night in particular that was both fun and tiring was an all-night ghosts hunt I went on with Boleyn Paranormal down at a True Crime Museum in Hastings. It was a lot of fun, very interesting and I met more awesome people, but I’m not doing another all-nighter. I was shattered for a few days after that. Cat and Lynx Raven were there as well, and they popped back to my home to meet my animal army before they returned to Cardiff. En Route to my house we stopped at the site of the Battle of Hastings. Although not far from my home I can’t recall ever going there and it was quite a surreal experience that I’m glad we took the time to do.
A massive highlight of the year for me was meeting Scott Sigler and AB Kovacs. I’ve been a fan of Sigler’s work for a decade now and when he announced he was coming to Europe, including the UK, it would have taken the zombie apocalypse to have stopped me from getting there. It was a great evening in a pub in London just hanging out with Scott, A and other fans of Sigler’s work (AKA the Junkies). It was good chatting to them both and seeing the love they have for the fans of the work. Both Scott and A have a lot of charisma and energy and clearly love what they do, and it was one of the highlights of the year.
With Scott Sigler
With AB Kovacs
2017 has had a lot of downs, but its had a lot of ups as well. That’s what I’m focusing on, I’m not ignoring the low points, just choosing to look at the positives. Most importantly I appreciate those important people I have in my life. My friends and family mean the world to me and I’m very grateful having them all.
This last week I haven’t done a huge amount of writing, what I have done has only been a few hundred words a day. I have been working on some world building and outlining for another project which could be a wasted exercise as I’ve a feeling it’s not going to go anywhere in the new year (long story). Despite it probably being pointless I’m going to crack on with it as it’s proving a good learning experience, in that I’m just jotting down ideas. They’re all randomly spread across the paper (I’m going pen and paper for this process) and what I’m going to do is put them in the right order when I type it all up. What my goal is, is to have it as a file I can present someone but in digital and paper format. It’s also helping me to get my thoughts organised. My brain tends to be a chaotic whirlwind of thoughts and this is helping quite a bit.
I have got a story with Beta readers at the moment that I’ll be submitting shortly. There’s another anthology that I want to submit to as well and I was planning on getting stuck into that one today, but I have a few non-writing bits to do today as well. So I’ll see what time I have once I’ve done those.
My little goal this coming week is to try and get up to 500 words a day. If I can do that on my main project for the rest of the year I’ll be very happy.
It’s been a hectic few weeks as I’ve had some family concerns, which has resulted in me having to back away a lot from writing until things return to normal. I have been writing, although NaNoWriMo was a disaster if you look at word counts. In the end I got 21,343 words written. That averaged out to 711 words a day. But in all I wrote 27,146 words for the month as I had a short story I needed to write and I did work on a few other projects early on in the month.
The story I’ve written for NaNo hasn’t worked out how I was hoping it too, and I did almost give up on NaNo at one point. I wanted to get some words added on it every day though. I wanted to get that consistency for the month.
Now I’m working on a rewrite from a story I wrote for NaNo a couple of years ago. I think this is probably the third draft of this one now, but I feel like I’ve got a decent handle on the setting, characters and the story I want to tell now. I had started that one before November so I’ve got over 10k words already and I’m just getting into some of the fun stuff with it. This story is the first one where I really let myself go a bit and dug very deep into that dark side of myself to get the story I want.
I have got a short story I want to get stuck into that’ll be for submission early next year as well. I’ve got another short that I’ve edited and will hopefully get off to my Beta readers next week before submitting that one.
Although I’ve had to slow down a little, I’m still trying to keep moving forward.