Good Afternoon, 29th of December 2020

Good afternoon folks, I am going to dive into the edit of Black Blood this after noon. I’d love to work my way through about 10,000 words this afternoon, but I’ll see how I get along.

I’ll be starting after some lunch.

Something I’ve been thinking about doing is a reflection of the last twelve months, but I’m not sure I’m comfortable bringing a lot of that up at this point. Some of it I’ll never blog about either as it’s not fair on others. I’m also of the mindset that, although I’m learning the lessons of the last twelve, eighteen months, I want to be looking forward. I’ve got a lot to look forward to in the next twelve months, both on a personal level and a professional one.

I will just say one part of my life is not good, and potentially won’t be for a long while. It’s a driving force though, and I’ll make sure when it changes I’m in the best possible position I can be.

New hat selfie!

Right, dinner has been eaten. I’ve chilled out a little and now I’m going to get to work before my body tells me its time for a nap!

Good Morning, 28th of December 2020

I’ve kind of had a week off from writing. I was expecting to use it to get through the Christmas period but I didn’t need to in the end. Yes, it was still tough but thanks to all I’ve learnt, all the help and support I’ve had from the people I love in my life I was able to manage it better than I was expecting to.

Raven going for a majestic look 😊

I was also a little stuck with where I was taking Black Blood. I kept trying to add words but it was becoming very evident that I wasn’t prepared enough to finish this draft. So last night I began making notes. I didn’t start reading through the draft, I just copied some notes I’d scribbled down while writing the later stages of the story and did a few sketches. I’ve never really done the sketches, well not since Owen and I were working on From the Shadows a very long time ago. I found doing the couple I did last night really helpful, okay it brought a problem I hadn’t expected but I think I can find a way around that, or work it into the story.

I’m going to start the read through today, with the aim of having it done by the New Year. It’s a lick over 50k words and I think I can manage that. I’ve looked at my work rota and I definitely think it’s doable. Especially as I’m not going to be doing a full edit. This is a read through to figure out what I need to add and take away. What I need to do to get the ending how I want it, and to give it the depth and weight it deserves.

I think it’s also time to move this draft into Scrivener. It’s going to be helpful to be able to break it down into chapters and scenes and then I can insert or remove sections much easier. I can also have additional information that I’m compiling in there as well. I think that’s the way to go.

Right folks! I’ve got a little tidying before I can start working so I’m hopping off here. Have an awesome day!

17th December 2020

Good evening, folks!

I have spent most of this afternoon reading through Lovers and making notes. I’ve got some good ideas jotted down but will spend time building it before I start the new draft. I don’t want to rush it, I’ve got a history of diving in head first and blowing myself out of steam too soon. So I’ll hold off, let the ideas run around my brain, and see what comes from it.

What helps in holding off is I have Penal Earth and Black Blood (not wild about that title) in progress. Penal Earth is in the endgame and I think I’ll be wrapping it up soon. I’m not willing to say in the next day or so, but maybe by the end of the year.

Black Blood is a little further out, and I’m slightly tempted to leave that till the next year and let it breath a little before I get it finished.

I’m getting better at keeping my focus on one thing.

I did write this afternoon as well, only 715 words but I knew I wanted to get some words down today. Hopefully it’ll lead me into a decent day’s work tomorrow.

The end of this year I’m planning on being very productive. I’ll be working a fair bit of the Christmas period, which doesn’t bother me but I’ll also have some time to get words wrangled.

Right folks, I’m off to chill out for the rest of the evening. Day off tomorrow, so aiming for a productive one.

Rock on, folks!

Taking Positive Steps

Thinking about the goals I wrote down yesterday something has struck me today; I need to learn how to make the most of my time. I’ve talked briefly about this before, but it really is something I need to master. The next few months I’m going to be trying to optimise my time. Between work, writing, family, friends, and downtime I need to be productive when I have the time. Something I’ve recently written on my dry/erase board above my desk is ‘Make Writing Time Sacred’. This is something I definitely need reminding of. To try and make that happen is that when I’m sprinting (writing intensely for a set period of time) not to do anything else. Just write. I’m getting better at that, especially when I don’t have much time available. Very little can’t wait twenty minutes. If its an emergency, I’ll respond but how often do we really have emergencies?

My office door

I’m exercising the same mentality with blog posts. I’ve got notifications I need to respond to, but they can wait. Don’t get me wrong, if its a private message I’ll respond between paragraphs, but I don’t want to stop mid paragraph.

Something I am good at is procrastinating. If it were an olympic sport, I’ve be wearing the fucking gold medal! I would be the world record holder and destroy all who come to take my crown, but am I like that anymore? No, I don’t think so. I’m getting my butt in the chair a lot more than I used to. Even though I’m blogging from my bed right now, with a movie on, I’m trying to do all my work from my desk in my office. That’s what it’s there for, and I write more. I write more when I’m working from my desktop (when it wants to work which isn’t often, I do need to get it checked out, but when I have the cash).

The office is a work environment. It’s got fewer distractions, and it’s set up to work. I can write anywhere, but it’s so much easier having that space to write. I can shut the door and get cracking. I’ve got all my notebooks, printer, and very little non-writing items in there.

I’ll take some updated pictures of my office soon, seeing as it’s all but done when it comes to the layout and furniture.

I’ve got my wardrobe in there, which I’ve got covered with pictures of my loved ones. It’s the first thing I see when I walk into the room and it’s an instant inspiration. They help drive me but it’s not just that which is pushing me forward. I’ve had both the worst and best year of my life. Because of the worst I’ve finally addressed my mental health and the help I’ve got for that, along with great support from my loved ones and professionals has meant I’m feeling more focussed and capable now. I would never have been able to think about my goals for next year in the way that I have done without these changes in my life.

What I’ve learnt the most is that I dictate my moods. If I’m feeling down, I now know how to pull myself up. If I can’t do it myself, then I can reach out to loved ones and they help me out of it. We can’t control what happens around us, but we can control how we react to it.

The anthologies I’ve been published in.

This post went way off in a direction I wasn’t expecting! But I hope you enjoyed my rambling!

Good Morning, 15th of December 2020

Good morning, folks! I hope everyone is doing good!

Just a quick post before I start my day. I likely won’t be getting a lot of writing done today. Work later on and I’ve got an appointment to prep for that takes place tomorrow but I don’t want to be rushing the prep after work and before the appointment tomorrow. So most of my free time before work today will be on that, anything the isn’t though I’ll be getting some form of writing work done.

I’m feeling happy about my goals for next year, even if I do have a slight doubt that I’m being overly ambitious. The way I’m looking at it though, is it’s time I started pushing myself. After so many years of living with self-doubt beating the crap outta me (in every aspect of life) now I’m finding my confidence a little I feel like I can push myself that bit more. I’m not so scared of the world that I used to be, it’s still there but it’s not dominating me like it used to.

Yes, I’ve just woken up!

Right, I’m off to get cracking! Have an awesome day, everyone!

14th of December 2020

Good evening, folks!

I’ve not written today, mainly because I was planning a heavy writing day tomorrow. I’ll be doing an afternoon shift at work now so I won’t be getting as much done as I planned, but I’m going to (try) and get up nice and early and get some words done before work.

I haven’t just been sitting on my arse all evening though. I’ve tweaked a few things here my blog and worked on my goals for next year. Mainly because I want to know what I’m working on next year, I’m feeling capable and organised, and I want my goals ready for the 2021 Mando Method listener goals episode. (I might be doing a Buda with next years goals, Armand and Chuck!). I might have also started on my goals for 2022 as well….

Had a fuss break this afternoon while working on this site 😊

I’m off to watch a movie now, maybe Dead Snow I think.

Rock on folks!

10th of December 2020

Good evening, folks!

I’ve had an writing off day. After I finished work this morning I found I was knackered when I got home and had a nap. When I woke up I felt more drained so decided to chill out. I’m off tomorrow and can get stuck in then, but I couldn’t not do any writing work. So I started preparing for the Lovers 2nd draft.

I am so pumped to be working on this one, I’ve got the feel for it now and know how I’m going to lay it out, I just need to get the bullet points out of my head and onto paper and then I can start fleshing out the details and get ready to write the second draft.

I’m ready for bed, so night all! Rock on and bed good to each other.

Tuesday, 8th of December 2020 Roundup

Yep, another early roundup post as I likely won’t be blogging when I get home tonight.

I have written 1896 words this morning, in about two hours. Which I am super chuffed with! I got up in good time, and made the most of my time. When I have the time to write I have to make it almost sacred. This I am getting better at. I’m to getting distracted, (with the exception of the cats) and I’m getting on with writing. I’m setting up sprints in my NaNo regions Discord and even though I’ve been sprinting alone today, it seems to be firing me on.

Dizzy chilling in the warmest place in the room!

This all reinforces to me that I can do this. That the only person holding me back is, can you guess it? Me. I said yesterday (I think), that aside from one element of my life, the most important, that I am in probably the best place I’ve been in for years. I think that is started to bear fruit.

I’ve always had self-doubt, a lack of confidence in all aspects of my life. After this year and hitting rock bottom and with the help I’ve had and addressing my problems it feels like it’s beginning to come together. Not perfect, but I am a better me than I was just a few months ago and people are noticing which is great.

Right, I’m pretty sure I just repeated a lot of what I wrote yesterday, but hey, a little repetition never hurts!

I’m off to get ready for work. I know I’ve got a challenge there today, which I’m looking forward to diving into.

Day off tomorrow but I’ve got a few things to do so writing time will be limited, but if I can get almost two thousand words down in two hours today, I can find time to try for that again tomorrow!

Have a great one, folks! And remember, be kind. It’s not hard.

Good Morning, Tuesday 8th of December 2020

Howdy, folks! my plans for today have changed as I’ll be working this afternoon/evening now. So I’m going to try and repeat what I did yesterday and write for a couple of hours before leaving for work.

I was super happy with how Penal Earth went yesterday. I liked the direction it took and I’m eager to get cracking on it today. I can see the end in sight now and feel positive about having this draft done by the end of the month. I feel the next draft may have a lot of tweaks but hopefully they’ll just be filling out world building elements, and not maybe plot points.

One thing I have been thinking about is for book two I might use a lot of the elements from the original draft I wrote for NaNo years ago. I still like a lot of the elements that it had and think it works better as a second book as I won’t have to do as much world building this second time around.

Seeing as Alexander Bailey and Armand Rosamilia shared their dry/erase boards…. I also do not apologise fir my handwriting 😁

I’m not going to just retrofit that first draft though. I’m going to start from scratch using what I remember and go from there. I think that’ll be more manageable. Not that I’m going to get to this one anytime soon. There’s at least three big projects to work on before I even think about Penal Earth 2.

I really do need to sit down and review where I am with projects and look at my goals for the next twelve months. Before we know it December will be rolling to an end and 2021 will be here.

7th December 2020

Two posts in one morning! I know, right! But the way I’m looking at it is I probably won’t blog after work tonight so let’s give you fine folks an update on how writing went now.

I wrote 1043 words this morning on Penal Earth and I’ve left it in a place that I can kick in and have a lot of fun with it tomorrow (there will be blood, lots and lots of blood!).

Tomorrow I’m going to aim for a thousand words, and get the zombie book edited. It’s about twenty-five thousand words, so its easily doable in a day.

I’m aiming for a couple of productive days as I have them off this week. I’m feeling good, better then I have ever done.

I’m lucky to have a writing space, and yes I do get more done when sat here 😊

I have one part of my life which isn’t good, and it’s the most important but I have to be patient with it, it’s also something that I’ll never go into details with here. I am pretty open with my life on here, there are somethings I reserve the right to be private about though. The exact part of Gravesham is one, where I work is another, and that one part of life which isn’t how I wish it was. It can be changed, but as I said, I need to be patient with it.

This year has been the best and worst year of my life, and I’m not the same person who I was at the start of it. I like who I am now, and how I am evolving.

I’ve a tough path ahead but I’m ready to walk it.

Wow, that got deeper than I was expecting!

Have a great day, all!