Good Morning! 21st of July 2021

Howdy Folks! How is everybody this morning?

I’ve written 1048 words on the short story I started yesterday. It’s titled Robert at the moment but that might change. This one is flowing quite well at the moment and I’m going for two POV characters and see how it works out. I’ve not done a lot of this so I’m hoping it works out well.

I do love a good start to the day. It sets a good tone for the rest of the day having already achieved something.

Tomorrow I’m off from the day job but have a few errands to run early on. I’m going to try and get into the reading of Penal Earth tomorrow after I’ve done all the other bits and pieces that are needed. I’d also like to continue on Robert as I don’t want to loose my momentum.

Right, I need to get ready for work! Have an epic day, all! Make it a good one!

Good Evening 20th July 2021

Good evening, folks! Today I wrote 1038 words on a new short story. It took a little to get going, a couple of false starts but once I changed a small detail I found the spark that got the story going and boom! A thousand words flowed in a good half an hour. I’ve not had a session like that in, what feels like an eternity.

Here’s the the thing I’ve been struggling with, I’ve lost my confidence. I keep rewriting and editing and putting off finishing something. Listening to Armand Rosamilia and Chuck Buda on the Mando Method last week has really hit home. My confidence in writing is generally pretty low, but lately its been rock bottom. I’m going to work on smashing through that and building that confidence up again.

Something that I feel I need to do, is stop censoring myself. I do that a lot, holding myself back. The last two stories I’ve worked on I’ve just written. I’ve not thought about it at all, I’ve just written it

Right, I’ going to wrap it there. I feel like I’m rambling.

Good Morning, 19th July 2021

Good Morning Folks, how are you all doing? I’ve been up about fifteen minutes and am hoping a blog post will help me wake up a little quicker. Plus tea, tea is a gift from all the gods!

I am waking up a little easier now. I was going through a period where I was struggling to get up, I know this is a marker of mental health concerns, but the last few weeks I’ve been setting an alarm, generally for 8am and I’m finding that I’m waking up about 7:30am most mornings. It’s a little different when I’m working an early as I have to be up at 4am for those, but I’m finding it easier to get up for those as well. I’m just not waking up thirty minutes beforehand!

Writing wise, I’m going to add a few more words to the short story I’ve been working on. I think it’s taking shape nicely and although yesterday I was thinking I’ve nearly finished this draft I think I may be a little further off than I thought.

Last night I had a thought and realised that this story I’m kind of letting loose a little and I think there’s an icky factor to it that I like, and I realised last night that is what I should be doing. Finding that element of boundary pushing. I’m a horror writer, the stories are meant to be uncomfortable.

It really got me thinking about the writing I’ve been doing lately and how I need to go down that more uncomfortable path. Art isn’t just meant to be beautiful. It’s allowed to make you think as well, it’s allowed to trigger things that make you feel uncomfortable. So I’m going to try and embrace that.

Right, I’ve work in a bit and would like to get a little bit done or writing work done before leaving. I also need tea! and something to eat.

Rock on folks! It’s the start of a new week, so lets all hit the ground running and make a difference.

11th July 2021

Hey folks, I managed to punch through some of my recent difficulties with writing by cracking out a thousand words today. It’s not a new story, but a rewrite of one of the vampire ones. I’ve had a rough couple of days and tried to channel some of that into the story. It’s one that I think needs something a little more personal to tell the story I want to tell.

Writing wise that’s all I’ve done today. It was a long shift at work, not a bad shift though. It went quickly but due to a lot of problems sleeping I’ve not done a lot tonight aside from a little work on a coming blog post.

Tomorrow is a new day, a new week. So let’s make it a good one.

Even though I wasn’t working long tonight, Raven still decided to sit on what I needed.

10th July 2021

Good evening, folks. I got 5948 words edited on my vampire book, I also added 230 words to it as well. I shoulda got more done today. My head just isn’t in it at the moment, which is why I’m not doing a real deep edit on it. That’s also another reason why I’m kind of holding off on the zombie book.

I have also written 391 words on a new story which was more of a stream of consciousness than anything else. Maybe a little more closer to home than I’d like to admit too, but as I’ve struggled to write so much recently I’ll take anything at the moment.

I still have a dictionary/thesaurus that I use because spellcheck doesn’t always get the word I mean 😛

I’ve got a long shift tomorrow, so I’m not sure how much writing work I’ll get done. I’ll be taking my new Bluetooth keyboard and try and get some words written that way. I am struggling to write at the moment but I think I just need to try and push through it now. It’s not that it’s been too long since I was writing (finished a short story at the start of the month), but right now it feels like this struggle to write could become a serious problem with writing new stories. I can’t explain why I feel like that, it’s just a gut feeling that I need to snap out of this before it becomes a weight around my neck.

Right, I’ve got a couple other bits and pieces to get done tonight before I think about bed.

So, rock on folks! Have a good one!

4th July 2021

Hey Folks, how are we all doing today?

Today I have edited 13123 words of the vampire book, and added 179 words to it. That’s my next story that I’m working on. I’m being a little ambitious but I’d like to have it done by the end of the week, I’ve got two days off towards the end of the week so I can always smash through the last of it then. It’s a little under 60k words so I should be able to do it, despite a busy working week coming up.

I was going to start working through the edits from the editor on the zombie book, but I don’t feel ready. This is something I don’t want to rush. I’d like to let it all simmer and read it through again before making some notes, and then maybe again after that before I start making changes. The editor I use I’ve worked with before and she knows her shit, and she’s brutal without being an arsehole about it.

Writing has been shit of late. I’m struggling to find a flow with new words. Hopefully finishing Isolation was me breaking through that wall a little but we’ll see. I do think I need to refill my creative well. I’ve not had a lot of new content recently and I need to change that.

Okay Folks, I’m going to wrap it up here. I’ve got all that I wanted to do done today. I’ve got non-writing bits and pieces to do now and then a little chill out.

Have an awesome one, folks!

Good Morning Sunday 20th June 2021

Almost 11,000 words edited on Black Blood yesterday after work.

It was a slog if I’m honest. I’ve got focus at the moment but it’s because of a lot of stress I’ve got at the moment, which is why I’ve not blogged much recently, and the posts I have done are likely to have not had a great vibe to them.

But, time to snap myself outta this shit show that is my head. After editing yesterday I started reading up about dyspraxia again and learnt a fair bit about the condition which I’m hoping will help me understand myself better and be able to overcome at least some of the problems I have that I’m now learning stem from being dyspraxic.

While was reading up about dyspraxia I watched a movie called An Innocent Man staring Tom Selleck and F. Murray Abraham. I remember watching this when I was younger and haven’t seen it in a long time, but it was the first film that I’d watched where there was this brutal prison life and not what Ronnie Barker endured in Porridge.

Right, I’ve got to get to work now. Am currently sitting in the staff room before starting the days work.

Have an epic day, all!

Raven all tucked in while I was researching last night

17/6/21

Yesterday I edited 1197 words, which again was like getting blood from a stone. I have very little focus at the moment but I know the more I work the more my head clears and I’m much more capable in myself then if I’m sitting on my arse.

So, forcing my way through that urge to just go back to bed and stay there.

Right now I’m distracted by the falling rain on the road outside my home. I’m not feeling particularly well either, but I’m going to edit and not stop till I hit 10k.

15th June 2021

Although it was somewhat of a slog, I edited 6666 words of Black Blood and added about 700 words to it as well.

Just a short post tonight, I hope you’re all well and cracking on ☺️

Raven watching me tidying up

14th June 2021

Good evening, folks.

Writing has been a struggle of late, and I’ve realised I can’t do anything with my Homestead story for the time being. So I’ve put that aside and started the next edit of Black Blood, as well as working on a short story idea I had some time ago.

I forced time at the desk today, I don’t like doing that but it was needed to get myself going again.

I edited 4600 words on Black Blood, and have set myself a goal of November to have that, and edit passes of Penal Earth and the vampire book done. I’m also going to try and work on some new short stories as well. I don’t want to start another big project until November. I’ve got plenty to work on until then.

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Right, I’m going to leave it there for the evening. I hope you are all well and managing to crack on with your art and lives in ways that bring at least a little happiness to you.