Good Evening, 1/9/21

I set out in my post this morning to try and hit 250 words. In the end I wrote 511, and after the first 50 or so they flowed pretty damn smoothly. It’s a new story that isn’t one I’ve been thinking about it was just shot from the hip. I don’t know where it’s going, and I don’t need to know. I’m going to try not to think about it too much and just le the words carry me along.

I also began a little prep work for NaNo, as in I created the file and made some notes on a story idea I had Monday. I’m kind of tempted to go for the short story collection again. I like that format for NaNo and the story I was going to write for NaNo I’ve already started and the one I was thinking about doing I’m not sure it’s the right time to be doing it. I was going to do a rewrite but I’ve GOT TO STOP with the rewrites! I’ve got first drafts done of a few stories and I need to just go through and edit the crap out of them. There’s some good stories there and they deserve to get some proper attention. I’m a big believer in not truly growing as a writer unless others are reading your work. Well I’ve got maybe half a dozen stories of novella length that have never had another pair of eyes look at them. Time to change that.

Maybe focus on writing short stories for a while, and learn more about honing those skills while also working on these edits.

This is my problem, I’m all over the place when it comes to things like this! I think some of the problem is I’ve got three novels that I think I’ve done all I can but can’t afford to send them to an editor at the moment and I’m not sure I want to lumber my beta readers with in excess of 150,000 words of fiction in the next few months. I know if I ask them they would, but I get that anxiety hit and back off.

Speaking of which, I will just take a moment to mention my Buy Me A Coffee page. I am occasionally able to take money from my day job income to fund my writing aspirations but anything would be grateful. I don’t really post much different to Buy Me A Coffee then I do here, I use it at the moment as a way people can easily tip me if they so wish.

And I’d just like to thank everyone who takes the time to read, comment, and share my posts. I am obsessed with numbers (even though they are my nemesis!!!!!) and seeing how many people do stop by always makes me smile!

Rock on you awesome people!

Good Evening, 2nd August 2021

Evening folks, how are we all doing?

I only wrote about a hundred or so words today. I’m feeling a little lost with Robert and tried working on something else but couldn’t get the flow going right.

I am getting the urge to get stuck into a longer piece. I’ve got novel ideas and I don’t know if I should start on one or hold fire and prep more. My Mermaid story is kind of ready to go, and I think I could have my war child story ready for NaNoWriMo. Having something different to what I’ve written the last few years might be good for my writing.

I’ve got editor notes on Zombie to look through while I think through what I’m going to do next.

The mermaid story is calling to me though…..

The notebook with the Mermaid notes in it 😉

Good Evening 20th July 2021

Good evening, folks! Today I wrote 1038 words on a new short story. It took a little to get going, a couple of false starts but once I changed a small detail I found the spark that got the story going and boom! A thousand words flowed in a good half an hour. I’ve not had a session like that in, what feels like an eternity.

Here’s the the thing I’ve been struggling with, I’ve lost my confidence. I keep rewriting and editing and putting off finishing something. Listening to Armand Rosamilia and Chuck Buda on the Mando Method last week has really hit home. My confidence in writing is generally pretty low, but lately its been rock bottom. I’m going to work on smashing through that and building that confidence up again.

Something that I feel I need to do, is stop censoring myself. I do that a lot, holding myself back. The last two stories I’ve worked on I’ve just written. I’ve not thought about it at all, I’ve just written it

Right, I’ going to wrap it there. I feel like I’m rambling.

10th July 2021

Good evening, folks. I got 5948 words edited on my vampire book, I also added 230 words to it as well. I shoulda got more done today. My head just isn’t in it at the moment, which is why I’m not doing a real deep edit on it. That’s also another reason why I’m kind of holding off on the zombie book.

I have also written 391 words on a new story which was more of a stream of consciousness than anything else. Maybe a little more closer to home than I’d like to admit too, but as I’ve struggled to write so much recently I’ll take anything at the moment.

I still have a dictionary/thesaurus that I use because spellcheck doesn’t always get the word I mean 😛

I’ve got a long shift tomorrow, so I’m not sure how much writing work I’ll get done. I’ll be taking my new Bluetooth keyboard and try and get some words written that way. I am struggling to write at the moment but I think I just need to try and push through it now. It’s not that it’s been too long since I was writing (finished a short story at the start of the month), but right now it feels like this struggle to write could become a serious problem with writing new stories. I can’t explain why I feel like that, it’s just a gut feeling that I need to snap out of this before it becomes a weight around my neck.

Right, I’ve got a couple other bits and pieces to get done tonight before I think about bed.

So, rock on folks! Have a good one!

Good Morning, Sunday 18th April 2021

Hey folks, I hope we’re all well today? I have had an epically bad nights sleep, so had a lay in to try and catch up on the lost sleep. I got a little but the extended time in bed has given me back aches, so, yeah.

But anyway, onto the words. As I didn’t get up early I’m behind where I was hoping to be but I’ve still got a nice few hours to work. It’ll likely be all editing today. I’ve got a little prep work to see to before I start editing but once that’s done it’s going to make things much easier with the story later on.

I’ve also got to prep for the next week’s writing as well. I’m going to have to be somewhat fluid with this though as if I have a couple of really good days editing I could be done with Penal Earth before the week ends, but that said I’m also kind of tempted to just stick to a daily target and not exceed that too much. That way I’m not blowing through my energy too early on in the week.

I’m realising I’m feeling very scatter-brained this morning. My thoughts are a little all over the shop, which is going to make editing fun! But I’m going to try. Even if it’s just a chapter I get done.

Right, I’m going to get started with the work for the day. I hope you all have a fantastic day!

Raven watching the world

Good Afternoon, 16th April 2021

Gooooooooood afternoon, folks! How are we all doing?

Yesterday I edited 10379 words on Penal Earth, and today I’ve got 9728 words edited.

I was going to hold off till next month to start on this edit and focus on three unfinished short stories the rest of this month, but when I started struggling to write I knew I had to do something to get myself back on track. I made a small start on Wednesday with 563 words edited. If I can do 10k or so a day, I’ll be done a week today. I’m not gonna bust my guts to get it done by then, I’m going to aim to have it done by the end of the month.

I did get in a situation where I was stuck on what to write. I couldn’t get my head around any of the three short stories that I wanted to work on and the story that is talking to me I’m not sure if I’m ready to work on it yet. I don’t want to just dive in and hope it works out, I think I’ve got a decent tale to tell in a setting that I think is going to be one I can play in for a few stories. So I want to think things out a little more before I just dive in.

Right, I’m going to wrap it up there. Good day’s process. I’m working a lot of making changes in my life so I’m happier in myself, and I think the changes are going to be a good start in moving forward.

Have a good one, folks!

Good Morning, 15th April, 2021

Good Morning! How are we all doing today?

Yesterday was not a good writing day. I felt a little down and normally writing can snap me outta it, but nada. I looked at three different short stories that I’m working on and nothing. I tried writing something new, but nothing came forth. So after about half an hour of trying I gave up. So I napped and watched The Simpsons.

After I’d showered and eaten though, a scene came to mind for a short story that I wrote years ago and am planning on rewriting. It was a piece of dialogue between two characters and it just kept growing. So I grabbed my laptop and wrote it out, 609 words. Then, although it was getting a little late I wanted to get some editing done on Penal Earth. I was going to wait till May to get started on this but that urge to do something was still there. I also think there was a little guilt as well at not being able to get anything done earlier in the day.

I always feel better when I’ve got work done. Okay, I still slept crappy but that’s just my life at the moment. But I woke up feeling ready to get a shit tonne done today. I’m not gonna go mad, and I’m gonna try something later that I haven’t done in ages and see how that goes but I do feel good right now. So I’m gonna work till about 10am and then get a few pieces around the house done and then I’ll see about doing a bit more with the words.

Raven watching the dust particles in the sunlight (and yes, she’s been bouncing around trying to catch them!)

Right, I’m going to start with some editing. I’m not sure what I want to write that’s new this morning, so I’ll start with editing and see how I go.

Have a great day, folks!

Good Morning 14th April, 2021 (Make Art Uncomfortable)

Hey folks, how are we all doing today?

Yesterday I wrote 336 words on a short story but also did a lot of research for the same short story, and I’ve come to the decision that I’m just gonna go balls to the walls and yet loose. I’m not going to worry about grounding it in reality. I’m just gonna try and make it batshit crazy.

I’m having trouble letting go when I write recently. Stephen King said in On Writing that you have to write like an orphan, or words to that effect. I was reminded of this when watching the film M.F.A. recently. At the end of the film there’s a line where it basically says art shouldn’t just preserve the beauty of life, but also the brutality. Make art uncomfortable. I love this message. So many of us grow up listening to music about good love, or films where everyone lives happily ever after.

Art is different for everyone. Some people thrive on the uncomfortable while others thrive on a good old romcom. Everyone is different and we embrace different things. For me, what I write, people will find uncomfortable. But some will find it fun. I can watch Saw movies with barely a flinch at the content, but watched The VVitch and The Ritual, made me squirm in my seat. But there are different degrees of being uncomfortable. Listening to the audiobooks of The Girl Next Door by Jack Ketchum and What Good Girls Do by Jonathan Butcher made me very uncomfortable. Even to the point where I had to stop listening to them. M.F.A. falls into that grouping. Although not as extreme as I Spit On Your Grave, it’s still a content matter that is not pleasant and when done wrong, without the respect the topic deserves it just makes a whole other level of horrific.

For films like The Vvitch and The Ritual, these made me uncomfortable because there’s a witchcraft/cult elements to them. An unknown factor that made me uncomfortable in a way I’d yet to experience. It’s something I’m still trying to put my finger on exactly why I find it uncomfortable.

Another book that made me uncomfortable is The Silence by Tim Lebbon. This one I had to stop listening to three times. It’s got a quiet brutality to it, one which I can see happening. There’s three distinct moments in The Silence which I could see myself being in that situation. Having to make an uncomfortable decision.

Not being scared to write things which people will be uncomfortable with or offended by is something I need to be better with. I’m not going to write something just because it’s shocking. I don’t think that works and people tend to see through things like that. I’ll strive to write what the story is asking for.

Right, speaking of writing it’s time to get a few hours done.

Rock on folks, never give up on that dream. Never let someone take it away or belittle it or you. Just keep going.

1st of April, 2021

Good morning! It is very, very morning here in the UK, about 5:30am when I start writing this post.

A couple of hundred words yesterday before work. I’d planned more but got sidetracked. I’d like to say I’m going to get a nice chunk of words done today, but I don’t think I will. After work I think I’m going to have a nap! I’m about 2 weeks into very bad sleep patterns and it’s really beginning to take a toll on me now. I’m okay, I will prevail! But a few more hours of sleep would be nice.

I’ve got to think about my goals for this month. I think finishing this draft of Black Blood should be one of them, probably the priority. I can feel it’s endgame building and I think I can bring it home.

Something I’ve been doing this last few weeks is listening to First and Only by Dan Abnett. This is the first book in the Gaunts Ghosts series, which is probably my favourite book series. It’s great catching up with the story and characters who are long dead. But it’s also a reminder of how other people write. I’ve not read much the last eighteen months and most of what I have is done in different ways to that of how Abnett writes these books. I’m loving the depth he’s putting into this story but also realising that I’m not that writer. Yes, I need to put mire depth into my work but I don’t think I’m the type of writer (at the moment anyway) that will build background for a setting that is a smaller scene in the scale of the book.

Obviously I don’t find anything wrong with this, it’s just different styles. With my work I’m a little more direct, I think is the best way to put it. I like a story that gives plenty to the reader but it’s not my style at the moment. I’d like to put more of that in. I look at something like Black Blood and I can see ways for me to fit those details in, and I want to. It just won’t be world building to the extent I’m seeing in Abnett’s work. That said, the Gaunts Ghosts books are Warhammer 40k novels and there’s a lot of world building to be done.

Right, i feel like I’m beginning to ramble, and I’ve got to think about getting into work.

So, have a great day folks! Go for that dream and stuff anyone who tries to take it away from you.

29th of March 2021

Goooooooooooooooooooooood Morning, Internet! (channeling Robin Williams right there).

How are we all doing today? My week of crappy sleep continued into last night, but despite that I’m okay! I have a purring Dizzy on my lap, a cup of tea, and a few hours at work to think this pm and then a day off tomorrow! Oh yeah!

I thought this last week had been crap writing wise. I feel like I’d not got anywhere with it, but when I look at my numbers I can see it wasn’t. I’ve had productive days, even if they’re only a few words written and nothing edited I can look at what I worked on those days and its set me up so I’m thinking through what I’ve written and where to go with the story the next time I work on it.

I thought I hadn’t hit many targets this month. Word count is definitely one I haven’t hit, but as I look at my board I can see that I’ve not only hit three of the six goals, I’ve surpassed them. I need to get my head out of the word count is the only goal that matters, it doesn’t. I know I can write 200k plus words a year, what I don’t know is if I can produce a finished story. Yes, I’ve had stories published but I need something where I’m standing on my own two feet. That’s what the zombie book is going to be. Me, out there on my own. No other writers to be amongst, just my words. Yeah, scary. But I’m not scared of the world anymore, yeah I might have a moment where I reach out to my closets friends and have them shout at me to hit that big ‘ol PUBLISH button, but it will be published.

Not taking today, but sums up Dizzy this morning ☺️

Right Folks, I’ve got to be at work soon. Today I likely won’t get anything written, but the gears are always turning.