Good Morning, Sunday 18th April 2022

It is a gorgeous sunny day out there, and I’m at my desk because I need to get some words wrangled!

My aim for today is to do my final pass on Zombie. I’ve added in the rewritten ending and have a load of notes to work through for it and then I’ll hopefully be done with it. The notes aren’t like massive rewrites or anything like that. A lot of them are notes from my editor that’ll help build the characters and the world, and have it make more sense.

I do have a video that I need to get some more work done on and I’d love to post it today, but I’m kind of bottling it at the moment. Just that self-doubt creeping in again.

My plans for my Ko-Fi page are moving along, albeit it a little slowly. I’ve almost got the first year’s worth of content lined up. I’m just going to go simple and have it as one short story a month and then with additional bits and pieces added in as and when I can. I’ll be open with what I want to do when it comes to memberships, in time I’d like to change it up a bit but for now I’m going to keep it simple.

I had a little waiting around time yesterday while I picked up a prescription, so I walked down to St.Georges church and sat in it’s grounds for a little while. It was pretty nice and calming down there. (managed to find a plot hole fix as well). It was nice just listening to the world for twenty minutes, letting my soul absorb the space.

I can be very critical of my hometown. I think it’s one of many towns that is slowly dying and one of the things keeping it alive is its proximity to London. As I walked through town yesterday I couldn’t help but look at all the flats being built. Some into every nook and cranny going, while others are being rammed into old buildings. Gravesend feels like its become a bed for the workers who travel to London each day. I don’t like this. We’re not a B&B. This town has some amazing history and I’d love to see it bloom.

Now, I don’t keep track of the politics of the town, or the mechanics of administrating a town, but I’d like to see more done to build this town that has some amazing people in it. There are so many empty shops, so much litter on the streets (the street cleaners do a great job but it’s a never ending battle for them). We need to change the mentality of those who call Gravesend home.

Right, I’m off to get some words edited. You all have a lovely day.

Good Afternoon, 13th April 2022

Howdy folks!

Today I have written about 1600 words on a short story. Added the new ending to the zombie book, and done background work on Penal Earth. I’ve also spoken to a publisher about a couple of ongoing projects that unfortunately seem to be on hold at the moment, and I’m about to look up some submission calls.

I need more days like this! I easily have the time, but my own self-doubt and anxiety get in my own way. It’s not even imposter syndrome, it’s just me self-sabotaging out of fear of the unknown. I need to get out of my own way and just do it! I know I can, I know I’ve got good stuff to get out into the world. So let’s stop fucking about and do it!

Okay, rant over. I’m off to play some GTAV while I wait for a phone call.

If there’s something you’ve always wanted to do, a dream you’ve had, just go for it!

Raven ‘helping’ 🤣

Good Evening, March 14th 2022

Hey Folks,

I wrote 500 words today, and I’m not overly happy with them. I was a little distracted and never really got flying. It’s not awful, but I think I can do better with a few tweaks.

I did do a short video for YouTube today. I started off talking about how my editing process is evolving and ended in me talking about imposter syndrome. That’s my brain, folks! Please have a look. (Dizzy makes a cameo).

I didn’t get quite as much done today as I’d have liked, and I still need to do a couple of bits before getting my head down. Including this blog post!

This is shorter one tonight. I really want to get those last couple of bits done, and I can hear a lemon drizzle cake my mum made calling my name!

So, have an awesome evening folks! I hope you’ve all had a good start to the week.

Good Evening, 10th March 2022

Howdy, folks! how are we all doing?

I’ve written 850 words today, and got a fair few little bits and pieces done. I also hung out with a friend for a little while.

It feels like it’s been a good day. Back to work tomorrow and then writing afterwards.

I’m kinda thinking that I need to push hard to get back on track. Like I said earlier, go big or go home! Sink or swim sorta thing I guess. I know what I want to do, I just need the confidence to get it done. I have the ability, I just need to trust myself. People who I have a lot of respect for tell me I’ve got all I need to make a career with writing. I need this to really sink in.

I have a Ko-Fi page, so if you’d like to chip in towards covering my writing costs I’d be super grateful. I’m going to start looking into expanding my crowd funding efforts in the near future. It does look a bit sparse there at the moment but I’ll be improving it all soon. (I’m switching from Buy Me A Coffee after an issue I wasn’t overly happy about).

Right, I’m going to wrap this up for the night. I hope you’ve all had an awesome day!

Good Evening, 1/9/21

I set out in my post this morning to try and hit 250 words. In the end I wrote 511, and after the first 50 or so they flowed pretty damn smoothly. It’s a new story that isn’t one I’ve been thinking about it was just shot from the hip. I don’t know where it’s going, and I don’t need to know. I’m going to try not to think about it too much and just le the words carry me along.

I also began a little prep work for NaNo, as in I created the file and made some notes on a story idea I had Monday. I’m kind of tempted to go for the short story collection again. I like that format for NaNo and the story I was going to write for NaNo I’ve already started and the one I was thinking about doing I’m not sure it’s the right time to be doing it. I was going to do a rewrite but I’ve GOT TO STOP with the rewrites! I’ve got first drafts done of a few stories and I need to just go through and edit the crap out of them. There’s some good stories there and they deserve to get some proper attention. I’m a big believer in not truly growing as a writer unless others are reading your work. Well I’ve got maybe half a dozen stories of novella length that have never had another pair of eyes look at them. Time to change that.

Maybe focus on writing short stories for a while, and learn more about honing those skills while also working on these edits.

This is my problem, I’m all over the place when it comes to things like this! I think some of the problem is I’ve got three novels that I think I’ve done all I can but can’t afford to send them to an editor at the moment and I’m not sure I want to lumber my beta readers with in excess of 150,000 words of fiction in the next few months. I know if I ask them they would, but I get that anxiety hit and back off.

Speaking of which, I will just take a moment to mention my Buy Me A Coffee page. I am occasionally able to take money from my day job income to fund my writing aspirations but anything would be grateful. I don’t really post much different to Buy Me A Coffee then I do here, I use it at the moment as a way people can easily tip me if they so wish.

And I’d just like to thank everyone who takes the time to read, comment, and share my posts. I am obsessed with numbers (even though they are my nemesis!!!!!) and seeing how many people do stop by always makes me smile!

Rock on you awesome people!

Good Evening, 2nd August 2021

Evening folks, how are we all doing?

I only wrote about a hundred or so words today. I’m feeling a little lost with Robert and tried working on something else but couldn’t get the flow going right.

I am getting the urge to get stuck into a longer piece. I’ve got novel ideas and I don’t know if I should start on one or hold fire and prep more. My Mermaid story is kind of ready to go, and I think I could have my war child story ready for NaNoWriMo. Having something different to what I’ve written the last few years might be good for my writing.

I’ve got editor notes on Zombie to look through while I think through what I’m going to do next.

The mermaid story is calling to me though…..

The notebook with the Mermaid notes in it 😉

Good Evening 20th July 2021

Good evening, folks! Today I wrote 1038 words on a new short story. It took a little to get going, a couple of false starts but once I changed a small detail I found the spark that got the story going and boom! A thousand words flowed in a good half an hour. I’ve not had a session like that in, what feels like an eternity.

Here’s the the thing I’ve been struggling with, I’ve lost my confidence. I keep rewriting and editing and putting off finishing something. Listening to Armand Rosamilia and Chuck Buda on the Mando Method last week has really hit home. My confidence in writing is generally pretty low, but lately its been rock bottom. I’m going to work on smashing through that and building that confidence up again.

Something that I feel I need to do, is stop censoring myself. I do that a lot, holding myself back. The last two stories I’ve worked on I’ve just written. I’ve not thought about it at all, I’ve just written it

Right, I’ going to wrap it there. I feel like I’m rambling.

10th July 2021

Good evening, folks. I got 5948 words edited on my vampire book, I also added 230 words to it as well. I shoulda got more done today. My head just isn’t in it at the moment, which is why I’m not doing a real deep edit on it. That’s also another reason why I’m kind of holding off on the zombie book.

I have also written 391 words on a new story which was more of a stream of consciousness than anything else. Maybe a little more closer to home than I’d like to admit too, but as I’ve struggled to write so much recently I’ll take anything at the moment.

I still have a dictionary/thesaurus that I use because spellcheck doesn’t always get the word I mean 😛

I’ve got a long shift tomorrow, so I’m not sure how much writing work I’ll get done. I’ll be taking my new Bluetooth keyboard and try and get some words written that way. I am struggling to write at the moment but I think I just need to try and push through it now. It’s not that it’s been too long since I was writing (finished a short story at the start of the month), but right now it feels like this struggle to write could become a serious problem with writing new stories. I can’t explain why I feel like that, it’s just a gut feeling that I need to snap out of this before it becomes a weight around my neck.

Right, I’ve got a couple other bits and pieces to get done tonight before I think about bed.

So, rock on folks! Have a good one!

Good Morning, Sunday 18th April 2021

Hey folks, I hope we’re all well today? I have had an epically bad nights sleep, so had a lay in to try and catch up on the lost sleep. I got a little but the extended time in bed has given me back aches, so, yeah.

But anyway, onto the words. As I didn’t get up early I’m behind where I was hoping to be but I’ve still got a nice few hours to work. It’ll likely be all editing today. I’ve got a little prep work to see to before I start editing but once that’s done it’s going to make things much easier with the story later on.

I’ve also got to prep for the next week’s writing as well. I’m going to have to be somewhat fluid with this though as if I have a couple of really good days editing I could be done with Penal Earth before the week ends, but that said I’m also kind of tempted to just stick to a daily target and not exceed that too much. That way I’m not blowing through my energy too early on in the week.

I’m realising I’m feeling very scatter-brained this morning. My thoughts are a little all over the shop, which is going to make editing fun! But I’m going to try. Even if it’s just a chapter I get done.

Right, I’m going to get started with the work for the day. I hope you all have a fantastic day!

Raven watching the world

Good Afternoon, 16th April 2021

Gooooooooood afternoon, folks! How are we all doing?

Yesterday I edited 10379 words on Penal Earth, and today I’ve got 9728 words edited.

I was going to hold off till next month to start on this edit and focus on three unfinished short stories the rest of this month, but when I started struggling to write I knew I had to do something to get myself back on track. I made a small start on Wednesday with 563 words edited. If I can do 10k or so a day, I’ll be done a week today. I’m not gonna bust my guts to get it done by then, I’m going to aim to have it done by the end of the month.

I did get in a situation where I was stuck on what to write. I couldn’t get my head around any of the three short stories that I wanted to work on and the story that is talking to me I’m not sure if I’m ready to work on it yet. I don’t want to just dive in and hope it works out, I think I’ve got a decent tale to tell in a setting that I think is going to be one I can play in for a few stories. So I want to think things out a little more before I just dive in.

Right, I’m going to wrap it up there. Good day’s process. I’m working a lot of making changes in my life so I’m happier in myself, and I think the changes are going to be a good start in moving forward.

Have a good one, folks!