Good evening folks. Just a quick post tonight. I was hoping to sneak in a few word after work so I opened up Penal Earth but I’m at the part where I need to start writing fresh words to fill in quite a gap between the chapters. So there’s a lot to do and I need to look at what I need to add in a bit more detail than I have in my head at the moment.
And not for nothing, I’m knackered. I’m not sleeping too well for numerous reasons and right this moment I’m wiped!
It is 8:37am and I am up and have had breakfast and have a cup of tea by my side. I am tired, I have a really bad back, and I’m still feeling down. I’m not going into why I’m feeling down, although I’m generally quite honest here there are some things I just don’t want to share here.
I’m feeling down, but I’m also feeling strangely okay. I can’t let the hard parts of my life get to me, I can’t. And this morning it feels like I’ve got enough to keep my mind occupied so I’m not just sitting feeling sorry for myself.
As I said yesterday, I’ve got a story that I’ll be submitting to an anthology by the end of the month. I’m going to get back onto Penal Earth, I know I should be working on the zombie book but I don’t have the cash for cover art and editing at the moment so I’ve still got a little more time for it. This is one that will be affected by Covid, not by much but I can integrate this pandemic into it in a way that it’s there but doesn’t change the story I’m telling. I’m not going to make it about the pandemic because that’s not what it was about.
I’ve got a list of pieces that I need to work on. Unless I see a submission call for something that tickles my attention I’m going to focus on what needs doing with what is already written.
Over today and tomorrow I’m going to look at my work schedule and see what time I can commit to writing and then map out the next week of writing. See how well I can do with planning and executing it.
Good evening folks, 3462 words edited on a short story that I’ll be looking to submit to an anthology which has a submission deadline which is the end of the month.
I spent a fair part of the day setting up a desk in what will be an office eventually. I did get those words edited and I’m looking forward to making the most of the space. It still needs work, and it’ll be something I’ll work on over time as I’ve got more pressing things to get sorted.
I’ve been given a printer that means I can print the documents off and get red-penning. It’s a method that works for me; edit a digital draft, then go through a printed draft with a red-pen. Boom! Done. It’s worked well for me in the past and I think it’ll work well for me now.
It felt good getting that space set up. Not got a lot to smile about at the moment but this did feel good. Proactive and something that’s going to help me focus on writing when I have the time to sit down to get the words done.
This sort story will be with beta readers by the end of the weekend. I like it, it’s one that when I was working on it yesterday I wrote a bit which rattled me a little and I had to go out and sit in the garden for a while to compose myself. Editing it today wasn’t as bad as writing it, but still wasn’t fun. To me that means (hopefully) I got it right.
That’s a wrap for tonight. I’m knackered after a few challenging days.
924 words written this morning. One scene I wrote rattled me quite badly and I had to go and sit outside in the garden for a while. Then I had life take my attention and that became priority.
I wrote 924 words though. In doing so I finished a short story that I’ve got to submit by the end of the month and this is only the first draft. So I need to do two edit passes myself and have beta readers look at it.
Tomorrow, I know what I’d like to achieve writing wise. but who knows what the day will bring.
I was talking to a friend who’s a writer and I was telling her/him that they have some serious writing skills. Believe me, they do. But it got me thinking about self doubt, and imposter syndrome. I think most writers and artists in general have it to a degree. I’ve heard a twenty plus year veteran hint that they’ve been lucky, when luck doesn’t play much of a part in it. It’s rare someone consistently gets published as frequently as this individual does for it to be luck. Yes, there might be a little of being in the right place at the right time, but if you don’t have the skill to produce something people are going to read, and be dependable then you won’t keep getting work.
I am at the very early beginnings of my writing career. I’ve been published in five anthologies as of writing this post. Was I a little lucky with my first piece being published? Maybe. One of the editors pointed me towards the submission call. Despite fearing only got in because I knew that person, our that there wasn’t many people who submitted don’t hold water. The editor is known for being brutal with the red pen, and I doubt she would accept a story just because she knows someone if it isn’t good enough. And if there wasn’t enough decent submissions, the publisher would drop the anthology. Which is something they’ve done in the past.
I’ve been published in four more anthologies since then. Each story had to stand on its own two feet.
There was one story that I thought was weak. But I had a little bit of good feedback from beta readers and an editor loved it (to the point where he invited me to another anthology that sadly fell through). When that anthology cam out my story was compared favourably to a Stephen King one. Yes, I may have been bouncing for a week after that one!
In a way, it doesn’t matter what we, the writer, may think of our work. It’s an editors choice if they are going to publish it, and that’s their job. What about self-publishing? I hear you ask. When it comes to self-publishing then it’s the reader who’ll decide. Does that suck a little bit? Yeah I think so. But for me it doesn’t matter because I’m writing what I want to write. One I might be working on pieces that I’m aiming at a particular market, but right in these early days I’ve got to write the tales I want to tell.
Trust yourself, and even if you still don’t then send it to someone you trust who’ll give an honest, but not mean, opinion on it. Don’t self-reject because of self doubt. It’s not worth it when the buzz of being published is as amazing as it is.
Nothing was written yesterday, or edited. I had a bad day and it wasn’t on the cards at all.
Today, I know I haven’t much time but I’ll try and get some words written at some point. No editing though. I want to get some words down. Just write. Even if I only have ten minutes, I want to get some words down.
Right folks, I need to sort myself out. Have a good day all. And remember, if you want something bad enough, try your hardest to get it. Even if you don’t succeed you can say you you put your heart into it!
It won’t be a long post tonight. I haven’t edited but I did write 104 words on the drabble story, yes that’s 4 words over the 100 max it’s meant to be and there’s elements to the story I want to add, but that’s what editing is for.
This week I’m going to be looking at setting myself some targets. Something a little more short term as opposed to the next eighteen months that I’ve been thinking about the last few days.
I do have a lot going on in my personal life that I’m not going to go into detail here. Those things are driving my writing though, more than it’s ever been driven before. Yes, I need to focus again. But I’m getting there. This coming week I’m going to look at the time I have and what time I can give to writing and try and make the most of that time.
It is 7:46am and I’m up and have a cup of tea and a laptop on my lap. I had planned to have a lay in but my back decided to scupper that idea, yeah….. I’m getting old!
But anyway, nothing worked on yesterday. After work I had errands to run and a couple of phone calls to make and then, and yeah I’m gonna say it, I binge watch the new Transformers series on Netflix. I needed a little downtime as well if I’m honest. I needed to shut down for a few hours, and although I didn’t get lost into the series as I’d have liked to of done I did a little, and that took a little pressure off me. Even if it was just for a few moments it helped.
I’m feeling pumped at the moment. I feel like I’m getting back into the rhythm of getting writing done. I still need some more focus and start thinking forward a little. I vaguely know what I’m going to be doing in the next few months but I need to start trying to figure out a plan going forward. What do I want from the next eighteen months? How the hell do I even figure out how to plan that out? It’s something I’ve been thinking on, and will until I have an answer.
This next few months are very vital to where I want my writing to be. I need to figure my track out and get on it and know where I want to be and what I’ve accomplished in, say eighteen months time. I need to work out what I’m capable of achieving in that time.
I have no idea how to do that, I’m taking to a few people. Seeing what guidance I can get and formulating a plan from there.
That’s a wrap, folks. I’m going to get cracking with my day. Have a good one folks.
(If you want an idea of how my mind is a little scattered at the moment, how I’m struggling to keep focus then look at the time stamp at the start of the post, and it’s now 9:28am).
Good evening folks! Today has been one which started early and in some respects flew by. At other times it’s dragged on, but not by much. Overall it’s been a good day.
I edited two chapters, which works out at 2770 words. I think I’m getting in the swing of it now. It feels like I’m getting the words a lot tighter and hopefully more smooth to read.
I also figured out how to track how much I’m editing as well. And it’s a really simple solution I should have figured out a long time ago. It’s honestly as simple as adding keeping track of how many words I’ve edited. So today is the first day I’m tracking it but I’ve gone back and looked at what I’ve edited this month already and have added it to my records.
I still feel like I’m going slow, but I’d rather it be quality than just okay. I know it can be better, an editor will tear it apart but it’s a learning process for me. The more I do it, the quicker and more efficient it’ll be.
Without going into details, life isn’t fun at the moment. I’m not saying this for sympathy or excuses. I’m saying it because it affects writing. Writing is what I’m doing outside of work to focus my attention on something that I can control. I can dictate my direction. Yes, there are things outside of my control but I can control more of that then much else in my life at the moment. Work is good, writing is getting better day by day.
My plans to do a chunk of editing today crashed and burned before they started this morning when my desktop decide to faff about. So I retreated to my laptop and didn’t get as much done this morning as I’d planned.
This afternoon I tried to nap and catch up on some of the sleep I’ve lost recently. I know I’m never going to catch up on that sleep, but I needed to get a little rest. I didn’t though. It was very unsettled with lots of waking up throughout. Mainly thanks to Raven wanting attention.
When I gave up trying to nap I watched some Friday Night Dinner while editing. A brief stop for dinner and then I watched Scott Pilgrim Vs. the World while editing. At the end of play I’d worked through one chapter, which was about five or six thousand words.
I know I said I was going to focus on one project but my head really isn’t cooperating with that. So I think I’m going to try and jump between projects depending on where my head is telling me to go. Until I’ve built up some discipline I think I’ve just got to write whatever my brain is leaning towards.
I’m not expecting to get much done tomorrow, between work and a few calls I’ve got to make I can’t see me having a lot of time till later in the evening. So I’m going to try then.