Twenty-one pages on the Penal Earth book 2 read through. I’m now going to start brainstorming some ideas while I transfer the parts I want to keep to a main file, probably in Scrivener. Then I’ll start connecting the dots and building the rest of the story.
I am thinking about my goals for next year, and I’m thinking I’m going to keep them simple. Penal Earth book two will likely be one of those that will be a major part of my writing year.
I’ve got a few other projects that are simmering, but mostly they are either short stories or completed pieces that need editing.
I just need to get my arse into gear. Strangely enough I’m finding doing an hour or so work at this sorta time of night is working out quite well. At the moment.
Right, I’m going to log out here. Finish watching Die Hard (first Christmas movie of the year for me), and then try and get some sleep.
This evening I’ve read through eight more pages of my source file for Penal Earth book two. I’m getting ideas and thoughts on how I want to proceed with it as I’m reading, and I’m realising there’s not going to be a lot I will be able to carry over into the next book. Some of it will be used further down the line but right now A lot of that will be put to one side while I craft a story around what I will be taking from it.
Right, I’m off for the night. I’ve got an early start tomorrow and despite feeling very wide awake, I’m going to try and sleep.
It doesn’t cost anything to be kind. That is one thing the world needs more of.
I’m going to leave you with a video by the fantastic Leah Solmaz where she talks about boosting your moods. It’s really helped me tonight and I think it’s worth a little of everyones time.
I did not get much done yesterday. I had a few bits at home to do before meeting a friend in the evening. So no writing done at all. I did do some thinking about a couple of different projects though, which has helped me progress them somewhat.
With NaNo very close now I’m definitely not going to jump into anything new or that will wash over into November. I’m not quite got my head into where I want it to be but I’m getting there. I’ve got a few ML(municipal liaison) bits to do that I think’ll get me into the mindset a little more.
I didn’t get much done yesterday. When I work on Sunday’s it’s normally a long shift which leaves little time before work to write and not a lot of time after as it’s quite a busy day working in a supermarket on a Sunday. Plus last night I was playing GTAV with my dear friend Stefan from Stefan’s Daily Gaming till 1am (we had far too much fun!).
Today I have a work shift which doesn’t leave much time either side to write but I have the next few days off. So I’m going to try and make the most of those days. Mainly because I want to work through the edits on Zombie before NaNo begins in SEVEN DAYS!!! and I want to have a clear plate before starting on NaNo.
I also want to do a little more prep for NaNo both as a writer and as an ML. My regions ML’s have had a natter and have a few ideas we’re playing with to build engagement for another year of not being able to meet in-person.
Right, I need to get off and get ready for my day.
I edited 3691 words on the Zombie book. There is a lot of work to go into it to get it right and it’s a little intimidating. I know what I need to do and I’m pretty sure how to do it. It’s just the thought of working through it line by line to get it there.
I’m only on the first if the three parts and I know the last one needs the most work, but strangely enough I think that will be easier than this first part of the book.
As I slept badly I took a small nap and then chilled out with some GTAV.
This evening I’m gonna watch a movie and then get an early night.
When I’m stressed out I overeat. When I was younger it was really bad. I’d eat two or three bars/bags of chocolate a day, and I’m talking the large share bags/bars of chocolate not the little ones you get at a newsagents.
It’s a coping method and something I just did. There wasn’t any thought going into it and it’s not been till the last few years where I’ve started connecting the dots and realising its a problem. I try and figure out what pushed me to food, and I find I’m a little grateful I wasn’t going out drinking in those days. Addiction is something that I’ve always feared, so I never really drank too much alcohol and definitely never did any illegal drugs or abuse legal drugs. I didn’t realise that sugar was sneaking in and claiming me, not until many many years later. I used to think ‘at least I’m not an addict’ not realising there was more to addiction than alcohol and what I thought of as drugs.
As I’ve got older its harder to eat as much, and that’s coincided with me realising it’s a problem. And in particular the last eighteen months or so it’s something I’ve been trying to manage better, not very successfully but I’m trying. Writing this post will hopefully help with that as it’s admitting it in such an open forum.
I’m listening to my body a lot more, and that’s something which feels like it’s changing. I used to stuff my face and then wonder why I was feeling rough, totally ignoring the tub of ice cream I’d just eaten. Now I’m realising when I’m full, but also managing to stop myself from eating more. It used to be that I would keep going until the bar/bag was finished. The thought of leaving some for tomorrow either didn’t occur or seemed like an obscene concept.
Since realising just how bad I can binge eat and figuring out how to firstly manage it, and now try and beat it I am feeling better. I know the days when I don’t beat it. I feel heavy and sickly. I’m putting so much rubbish into my system and I need to at least compensate with more water for example (drink two litres of water a day folks!). But I feel like I’m going in the right direction with it. I drink less energy drinks, try and eat less sugary snacks and snacks in general. After my evening meal I feel full now, and if I do have something I’m trying to just have a bit but I’m working on not eating if I feel full.
I’m also thinking about the ‘when’ of eating. Too much sugar in the evenings affects sleep, which when insomnia is something you battle with you don’t really want to give it an ally. I’m trying not to eat after 9pm and with the exception of an occasional hot chocolate I try to just drink water or squash after 9pm as well. I’d like to cut this down to 8pm if I can but for the moment I want to be consistent about having that 9pm shut off.
At times I feel like I’m winning, and then I have a major setback and feel like hell and guilt trip myself for failing so hard, which then strengthens the urge to binge eat. It’s one of those vicious circle things. But I feel like I can get the balance right. Am I likely to give up sugar? no, but I can live my life without it dictating my intake of it. If I consume less sugary snacks I’ll start feeling it both physically and mentally and I’ll hopefully loose a little of the extra weight I’ve gained this last year, I’ll feel better mentally and that’s a win all around.
I have edited 6094 words on Robert and written 283 on a connected story (that was a section of dialogue between two characters that are in this story). I’ve also finished reading through the editors notes on the zombie book and I’m going to try and get that done by the end of the month. That’s a big goal, I know. But I want to try and push and get it done before NaNo.
It felt good getting something done. It’s been difficult to get back into this but today felt good.
I am ver conscious of the fact that NaNoWriMo is just around the corner. I’m feeling pretty good for it, I’m going to go for a short story collection again this year. I feel that’s going to be the best idea at the moment. I don’t really have a novel that is ready to be worked on just yet so I think this is the best path for me at the moment.
Right, that’s it for the night. I’m going to go and watch the rest of Squid Game and then get my head down.
Good morning, folks! How are we all doing this morning? I am knackered. The short of it is I’ve not slept properly for over a week now. When I do sleep its not good sleep. I more often than not wake up feeling like I’ve been in a street fight.
With that in mind, I’ve decided to take the rest of the month off from writing. I’m not writing at the moment, so this kind of feels like one of those things where I’m making an announcement that’s not going to change anything. It is though. I will guilt trip myself till the cows come how if I don’t do any writing, which just adds to my anxiety levels (which are always worse when I’m tired).
So, the vague plan is to not do any writing work till October. I’ve got a lot on my plate at the moment and this’ll let me refocus my attention properly. It’ll give me time to try and catch up on sleep via naps, and not slamming myself for napping and not writing will help.
Sometimes we all need to take some pressure off ourselves. This is me doing that. I do have a lot going on, and the next ten days or so I’ve got a lot I need to focus on.
I have got a couple fantastic little irons in the fire at the moment with writing, so this isn’t because I’m feeling down about writing. It’s just something needed to give, and writing is the most flexible part of my DNA.
When I dit down again in October I’ve got NaNoWriMo to think about (YAY!!!!!), and a couple of short stories I’ll be looking to get drafts of done.
So, lots going on with writing. The passion is still there and strong, I just need a breather from it to focus on other areas of life. And not for nothing, when I get back to it in October I’ll be very reenergised.
I edited 9694 words today on a story called Robert. Yes, I’m still holding off editing on Sweet Danny. Just need to get my head around it more.
I like Robert. I think it’s a good story and is part of a bigger universe that I’m enjoying working on.
At the moment I feel like my head is being pulled in twenty different directions when it comes to writing. And I don’t feel like I’m getting anywhere at the moment. I know I am, but it feels like I’m not.
I need to change that, I’m making progress but it’s just not as quick as I’ve convinced myself it needs to be.