Good Afternoon, 1st of March 2021

Howdy folks! I hope everyone’s day is going well?

I managed to get 1236 words written this morning, which is more then I was expecting. When I wrote my post this morning the thought of hitting even 500 words felt like a pipe dream, but I got some fluids and a little food into me and fought through the initial feeling of “let me go back to be!!!!!!” and cracked on. I’ve often said, I am the only person holding me back. That is absolutely true, that is something which I am working hard to overcome.

One thing that helped with this mornings words was that I was rewriting a scene that I knew I liked from the original drafts and I like how I’ve rewritten it. I’ll admit, it was originally very judgemental of one character, I suppose to a degree it was very cliched as well. I didn’t want to demonise this character for the lifestyle they had. It’s one that is their choice and although there is an element of scope to judge part of this characters lifestyle, I hope I’ve demonstrated some of the hypocrisy of other characters in the scene. I’m sure when I sent it to my beta readers, and my editor that all three will be more than happy to correct me if I’ve fucked it up!

Right, time to get ready for work! I hope everyone is having a good day!

Good Morning 1st of March 2021

A very groggy good morning from me. Another night of unsettled sleep, desktop not working, and Dizzy spilling a little of my tea means I’m really not feeling it this morning. I could have easily gone back to bed or popped a streaming service on for a few hours until I go to work, but I’ve force myself outta bed and to my desk, and with a purring Dizzy on my lap, I’m almost ready to go.

Today, I’m going to keep it simple, work on the vampire book. That’s what I’m most familiar with so I won’t have to dive into something I haven’t worked on for a while. I’ve got to list down what I want to achieve this month in the next couple of days as well. I’ll be rolling a few over from last month, but not too many. There’s one on there, the bounty hunter story, that I think I’m going to end up rewriting. I like the characters, I like the concept, but it feels a little weak at the moment.

I’ve got mainly lates this week, and I’m finding I’m more productive when I have a few hours in the morning before work, and it’s a great vibe to go to work with, having been productive before I get to work. It sets a good mindset that I like.

Right, that said, I really want to get stuck in, hopefully it’ll wake me up a bit more and I can stop fighting the urge to get back to bed!

Oh, and somehow I’ve managed to pass 2000 posts here. I can’t remember when I started blogging, it was around 2010 I suppose, and I’d imagine those early posts were awful! but I’m still going, and a big thank you to everyone who reads my posts. It means a lot to me and I hope it’s helpful.

Good Morning, 24th February 2021

Hey folks, how are we all doing today?

I’m not feeling as energised as I have been, and I’m writing this much later than yesterday for example. Something I do when I’m at work when customers ask me how I am I’d say ‘I’m good thanks, I’m always good me,’ It gets some laughs and it generally is true. Even when I’m feeling down I’ll try and snap myself out of it, because it doesn’t help anybody. I know it’s easier said than done. If you’ve been following my blog for a while you’ll know I was finding things very difficult last summer, and it’s been a journey and a half to get to where I am now, and its a journey that will never have a destination. Because I learn and grow with each day, each challenge. I’m not letting myself hold me back any longer.

We have the potential to be great. Both on an individual level and as a species. Now, with the state of humanity in this day and age I think it’s going to be difficult for us to achieve that greatness, but as individuals. There’s nothing stopping us. Even when we get knocked down, we get up, and brush ourselves off.

On a recent episode of the Mando Method Armand Rosamilia said about me that I’m always moving forward, even when I’m taking steps back I’m moving forward. That’s what we all need to be trying to do. If we have to take a few steps back, its not a defeat, its a way of moving forward because we might not be quite ready for that next step. It’s like the timing of a pass in a football game. If you play it too early the recipient might not be in a prime position to take a shot. Sometimes stepping back is about being patient.

Right, I’m going to get a little writing/editing done before the day job. I hope you all have a great day, folks!

Good Evening, 19th February 2021

659 words this evening, and then I hit the wall! So, I’m gonna watch this weeks episode of WandaVision and then maybe a movie.

Working after an early shift does sap the energy more than I’d like to admit, and I’ve got to make sure I’m not burning myself out. I’ve got another early shift tomorrow and then two days off. I almost pushed through to try and hit that 1000 word mark, but I was struggling with the story, I know what I want to say with this scene but I wasn’t able to get the words right. Come tomorrow I’m sure I’ll be able to hit the mark, at worse, I’ll do it Sunday before getting out for that socially distanced walk with a friend I mentioned earlier.

I’ve had a period of heavy fatigue where I wasn’t able to get much writing done. I feel like I’ve come out the other side of that and am getting back on track again.

Right, time for dinner and feet up (jarred my ankle this morning so should really rest it up a bit before tomorrow).

*edit: dinners been demolished, now watching a movie 😁

18/02/21 (2)

Just a quick post while I’m sitting in my car before walking into work. I wrote a little over a 1000 words this morning. I’d planned to write till 8:30am which would give me plenty of time to get ready for work before I had to leave. When it hit that time I saw I was at about 800 words and change for the day. So I pushed through another few minutes and got over that 1000 word mark.

That’s where I want to be, hitting a thousand words in a little over an hour. And I want to be at the point where if I’m close to hitting a 1000 words in a small window of time then I can push through and pass it.

That drive is essential! If I can capture that mentality then I can hit my goals, and there is no reason except myself for that not to happen!

Ready for work, having been productive already means I’m feeling good and raring to go!

Good Morning 18th of February 2021

Good morning, folks!

I’ve got working a couple of hours so I don’t have a lot of time to write. So this’ll be a shorter post today.

I’m not planning on doing anything else other than writing because I want to get stuck into this next story of the vampire book and see if I can get it rolling.

Right, that said it’s time to write. I need to be wrangling words when I can before work, it always sets me up for a good shift and a good day.

Rock on folks!

I’m useless before tea! 🤣

Good Evening, 17th February 2021

Hey folks, I’ve written 1231 words today on the vampire book and added some notes to Black Blood character files before I felt wiped out and decided on a nap.

After the nap I was going to do a little more but due to a car issue I took my parents to get their vaccine jabs. I made a few notes while I was waiting for them.

I did finish the episode of the vampire book I’ve been working on. The next one has me scratching my head a little, I’m not really sure how I’m going to tell the story I want to tell. I’m going to think it over a little and see what I can think out. I like this story, but it definitely needs rewriting and bringing onto track with how I want the story to be.

Over the last couple of weeks I’ve been struggling a little with my mental health. Nothing drastic, but enough to make me notice it. I’m taking steps, using what I’ve learnt from the help I’ve received to get back on track. Getting up early is part of that. The last two days I’ve been up around 8am and writing by 9am. Tomorrow I’m going to get up at about 7am and get cracking again before work. It worked well for me on Tuesday, and has worked well in the past. I get a good start to the day and I have a good day.

I feel like I’m on the right path again. Being productive helps, especially first thing of a morning. It means I’ve achieved something already that day.

A selfie a day keeps the black dog away…

Mental health is something that is still stigmatised. It’s still a dirty subject that people don’t want to hear about. I’m lucky, I’ve got loved ones who will listen when I need them. I’ve gotten great help, but I will fall at times. It’s how quickly I get back I that matters.

My favourite pen, a Parker Cartridge one, that I manage to misplace at least three times a week, but only ever for a few moments 🤣

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Good Morning, 17th February 2021

Good Morning, Folks!

I am up, have been for about half an hour now. I have tea, a kitty on my lap (which doesn’t make typing at difficult!), and I’m almost ready to go. It’s my day off so I’m aiming for a productive morning.

Yesterday’s plans changed as I was asked to go into work a couple of hours early, so I didn’t get much worked on. I think I wrote just over 500 words. Today I will get more done. I’ll be writing words but I’m also going to add more notes to my Black Blood master file and I might do a little brainstorming on one of the story rewrites I’m looking at.

I still feel odd about these rewrites. I hate the thought that I’m going to become that writer who works on one story for a decade and never finishes it as they strive for perfection. Nor do I want to become the writer that has twenty stories they’re jumping between looking for that one that will be a silver bullet that everyone will love.

*quick disclaimer, i started writing this post about 8:30am but something came up so i’m finishing it at 10:30am*

I understand there isn’t a silver bullet. There are times where something will look like it’ll come from nowhere but it’s very rare for a writing to hit instant success. It’s a marathon, that has no finishing line. We write and submit/self-pub, and repeat. I can do the writing bit. Now’s the time to finish and submit/self-pub.

Good Morning, 16th Of February 2021

Good morning, folks!

I’ve been awake about an hour and I’m just about to get going on my mornings writing before I go to work. I’m pulling myself kicking and screaming to the laptop today though. I slept, but I don’t feel like I had a settled night. I know I just need to wake up fully, and getting some work done will help.

Something I realised about myself a long time ago was that if I get a good start to the day then the day is almost always better. It gives me a positive mindset and a sense of accomplishment. So that no matter what else happens that day I’ve already been productive and that puts me in a fantastic mood for the rest of the day.

Raven’s cold

It was a struggle to get out of bed when I did today. I had an internal battle with going back to bed for a couple of hours. I don’t have to be at work until this afternoon, so I could have had a few more hours but that felt like a surrender. I preach about being productive and I do that a lot to try and trick myself into doing it. Sometimes it’s easier to just roll over, but then nothing would have got done. I’ve got a few hours where I can just sit and work. I can sleep after work.

First song on a YouTube playlist this morning 🙂

Getting Back On Track (9/2/21)

The last couple of weeks I haven’t got a lot done. Partly I was feeling unwell, but I think more of it was I was drained. Physically, Mentally, and emotionally. Just sometimes it all catches up with me and I adjust what I’m doing, moving my focus to where it needs to be. Which normally means writing is what suffers.

But, it also helps it. It’s a recharge for me. It allows that creative element of my soul rest, it lets me fill the creative well by (trying) to watch new things. I am heavily influenced by movies and TV, probably more than I realise!

It also helps me refocus. Normally when I take some time away from writing when I come back to it and I’ve got a better idea of where I am and what I need to aim for (which is something I definitely need to do!). It helps ideas grow as well. Even when I’m not writing I’m always thinking about it. There’s one idea or another head-banging in my brain and making sure I know it’s there.

I feel like I’m on the verge of getting back into the flow of it. I felt it a little on Sunday but I pulled a few extra hours at work yesterday which wore me out. I’ve not done a lot today, although I’ve added furry family member videos to YouTube today. I’ve got the next two days off, but have a few bits and pieces outside of writing to do. So I’m not planning to spend two days working on writing but I’m determined to get back on track.

There’s a whole playlist of my Furry Family members on my YouTube channel now 🙂

For now, I’m wiped out. So I’m going to watch a movie, and aim to be up nice and early tomorrow to get a good start to the day.