Looking Back At My 2012

The last twelve years have probably been the most defining of my life.  Last year (2011) ended with the nasty ending of a relationship which left me asking a lot of questions of myself and what I wanted out of life.  Those questions found answers over a couple of months and the answers were that I did not need to change anything about who I am.  Those first two months of the year were tough for me, but thankfully I have some very good friends who kept me going.  Stefan, Gwen, Laura and Louise.  Aharon, Owen, Leah, Mike, Cinta and Chrystalyn were all there for me in one way or another when I needed them.  Especially Stefan, Gwen, Laura and Louise.  These four friends gave me more support then I knew that I needed at the time. It was not until I was beginning to feel like myself that I realised just how much they helped me through.  My Mum, Dad and Brother were also great during this time of the year, and the rest of the year. I just want to give my brother Ian a special shout out because he has been the best brother anyone could ever ask for.

In March my life had the biggest change when Tracie came into it. I am struggling to put into words just how happy she is making me.  This time last year I dreaded waking up, now, I can’t wait.  As of the 1st of January we have been together for nine months and those nine months have flown by so fast its almost hard to believe. Never has anyone made me smile and feel as alive as Tracie does.  She has an amazing spirit and a heart of gold. Tracie’s family has welcomed me and it feels like I’ve been part of it for my whole life.

Like anyone else who breaths I’ve had a few ups and downs and other changes.  One of the biggest changes was where I worked.  At the end of june I was asked to come and work for a former employer who I consider a good friend.  When my car was off the road last year he sorted out a car for me to use in the time that my car was not usable. He asked me to come back to work for him and I jumped at the chance.  I’m still a car valeter at a car sales, which I’ve been for twelve years now, but I’m working a few less hours a week and much happier in myself.

A highlight of the year was meeting Cinta Garcia de la Rosa in Oxford. It was great to meet someone that I have met through blogging and became friends with.  We spent the day walking around Oxford, we had a great lunch and it was great to talk to another writer.

As for writing, well, that’s not been quite as successful.  I’ve spent the bulk of the year working on The Space Watch (Project Delphi) which is all but complete, but the release date has now been pushed back due to other stories in this universe.  I’ll try to write a post giving a little more detail about that in the next few days.  Project Apollo is finally off the ground thanks to NaNoWriMo but is a fair way off completion.  Me and Owen need to sit down and plot out the story from the middle to the end.  I seemed to lose my way with it a fair bit so I’m eager to see what Owen has to say on it.

I feel like I’ve failed with writing this year as I have not hit any of my goals that I set out at the start of the year. Saying that though I have learnt a lot about the art of writing.  About the depth that good world building requires.  What makes a good character. I am still a long way off from where I want to be.  One major decision that I made was that I will publish my own work myself.  I’m not going to try to go for the traditional route to being published.

Looking back at the year I think its been one of discovery and settlement.  I’ve found who I am, I’ve found a lady who truly makes me happy.  I’ve come to appreciate just how important my family are to me and I have discovered who my true friends are.  There are things th at I never imagined myself doing, hell one night I went out wearing a bra and french knickers! and yes there are photos……… I’ve met great people and dropped the dead weight from my life.

In the years to come I am going to look back at 2012 and think of it as the year that I began to move forward.

Me and Tracie


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