Good Afternoon, 1st of March 2021

Howdy folks! I hope everyone’s day is going well?

I managed to get 1236 words written this morning, which is more then I was expecting. When I wrote my post this morning the thought of hitting even 500 words felt like a pipe dream, but I got some fluids and a little food into me and fought through the initial feeling of “let me go back to be!!!!!!” and cracked on. I’ve often said, I am the only person holding me back. That is absolutely true, that is something which I am working hard to overcome.

One thing that helped with this mornings words was that I was rewriting a scene that I knew I liked from the original drafts and I like how I’ve rewritten it. I’ll admit, it was originally very judgemental of one character, I suppose to a degree it was very cliched as well. I didn’t want to demonise this character for the lifestyle they had. It’s one that is their choice and although there is an element of scope to judge part of this characters lifestyle, I hope I’ve demonstrated some of the hypocrisy of other characters in the scene. I’m sure when I sent it to my beta readers, and my editor that all three will be more than happy to correct me if I’ve fucked it up!

Right, time to get ready for work! I hope everyone is having a good day!

2020 Numbers

Originally posted on Buy Me A Coffee.

Last year was a mixed year for pretty much all of I would say. I’m no different. It was both the best and worst year of my life, from an amazing high to a low I didn’t know existed. If you’re a reader of my blog at petergermany.com you’ll know I’m not going to go into details on those moments. I talk about them because they did have an impact of writing. As you will see from the words I wrote and edited last year.

So, let’s get down to business:

  • January – 9011 words written
  • February – 11171 words written
  • March – 5691 words written
  • April – 562 words written
  • May – 1454 words written
  • June – 517 words written
  • July – 4524 words written, 39962 words edited
  • August – 14641 words written, 55323 words edited
  • September – 20471 words written, 7495 words edited
  • October – 15773 words written
  • November – 50615 words written (NaNoWriMo)
  • December – 13698 words written, 4477 words edited
  • Totals – 148128 words written, 107257 words edited

I only started tracking the words I edit in July which is why there are no numbers for them before that.

I was also published in three anthologies:

  • Corona-Nation Street from Burdizzo Books
  • Beneath The Leaves from Burdizzo Books
  • It Came From The Darkness from Red Cape Publishing and Phillip Rogers

I am so proud of these stories. My story in Corona-Nation Street, The Wank Diaries, had been written with this anthology in mind but I didn’t like the ending and with everything in life I’d forgotten about it until I’d seen a reminder pop up about it. So I rewrote the ending, which totally changed the tone of the story and I bled into it a lot. In hindsight maybe a little too much, now that I think back to it. But what it adds to the story I think gives it an impact that wasn’t there before.

The other two anthologies are ones I was invited into, with my story in Beneath The Leaves written long before life took a hard turn. My drabble in It Came From The Darkness was easy to write, almost impossible to get it down to the required 100 words!

Looking back now I’ve got the numbers right there, yeah, I’m incredibly happy with how much I achieved as a writer in 2020. There was a moment late in 2019 that I quit, then during the darkest moments of 2020 I didn’t make a decision but writing wasn’t going to be something I ever did again. When I started pulling myself clear of the dark hole I’d slipped into the words started coming again. I remember when I started blogging again last year, I talked about how I was struggling to get the words out again. The Wank Diaries got me going again. There was a deadline and I got it done in time.

That story got me back to doing what I needed to be doing, writing. Many things have helped me to get to the good place I’m in now, but that was a very distinct moment. Writing to me isn’t just a career. It’s part of my soul. Written into my DNA at the most primal level, and I’m never going to stop.

Good Morning 1st of March 2021

A very groggy good morning from me. Another night of unsettled sleep, desktop not working, and Dizzy spilling a little of my tea means I’m really not feeling it this morning. I could have easily gone back to bed or popped a streaming service on for a few hours until I go to work, but I’ve force myself outta bed and to my desk, and with a purring Dizzy on my lap, I’m almost ready to go.

Today, I’m going to keep it simple, work on the vampire book. That’s what I’m most familiar with so I won’t have to dive into something I haven’t worked on for a while. I’ve got to list down what I want to achieve this month in the next couple of days as well. I’ll be rolling a few over from last month, but not too many. There’s one on there, the bounty hunter story, that I think I’m going to end up rewriting. I like the characters, I like the concept, but it feels a little weak at the moment.

I’ve got mainly lates this week, and I’m finding I’m more productive when I have a few hours in the morning before work, and it’s a great vibe to go to work with, having been productive before I get to work. It sets a good mindset that I like.

Right, that said, I really want to get stuck in, hopefully it’ll wake me up a bit more and I can stop fighting the urge to get back to bed!

Oh, and somehow I’ve managed to pass 2000 posts here. I can’t remember when I started blogging, it was around 2010 I suppose, and I’d imagine those early posts were awful! but I’m still going, and a big thank you to everyone who reads my posts. It means a lot to me and I hope it’s helpful.

27th February 2021

I’ve started editing 7843 words and written 1181, but also deleted about 3000 words. This means I’ve moved onto the next story in the vampire book and boy is there a lot of changes to make. I’ve got a feeling this will be more rewrite than edit, but we’ll see how it goes.

I’m just about to get ready for work, and despite feeling dead tired I’m feeling good. It always helps getting words wrangled early on in the day. I get to work and I’m energised (despite the fatigue), because I’ve already accomplished something. I’ll take a notebook with me to try and do a little during my break but I’m not expecting to get more done today. I’m trying to push harder, get more done, but until I sit down and look back at the month I’m not going to judge it too much. I can’t guilt trip myself on days like yesterday when I didn’t write. I need to get in the habit of looking what I’ve done over the month and then set myself a target for the next month to try and better that.

Right, I’m off to get my butt into gear. I hope you all have a lovely weekend, and be kind and good. It makes a difference even if it doesn’t feel like it.

Good Morning, 27th February 2021

A very groggy but good morning folks. I’ve had two nights where I haven’t slept well, including one that was before a 4am wake up. I still slept, but it was the unsettled sleep that I tend t suffer when sleep won’t come smoothly. It’s not on the level of half an hour a night like it was at points last year, but it’s very restless and I wake up feeling more tired then when I went to sleep. Until I get the day going though.

With that in mind, I didn’t do any writing yesterday. After work I took Max for a walk and had every intention of doing a little writing while watching a movie or two, but after WandaVision I fell asleep.

Today, I’m going to look at this damn vampire story again and see if I can get the ending done (finally!) I’ve got a good few hours before when I need to leave for work, so I hope I can get closer to having it done.

I have had an update from the editor regarding the zombie novella, she’s made one pass and is making her second. So I’ll be getting that back soon (!!!).

With the end of he month right here I need to think about what I want to get done next month. I’m not going to hit a lot of my targets for this month, but that’s something I can accept. I had a few ups and downs, non-writing matters that needed my attention more than writing, but I still got a fair bit done. I think I overreached, but I also didn’t have anything regarding the vampire book on this months targets.

So looking forward to what I’d like to achieve next month I think most of it will be rolled over from this month.

Time for me to get cracking. I hope everyone has a good weekend!

A little more fun I’ve had for my buddy Nick from Next Step Nick 🙂

Good Morning, 25th February 2021

Good morning, folks!

How are we all doing this morning?

I have edited 4196 words this morning and just printed off the draft of that short story ready for my pen and paper edit where I will be reading it out loud. This is the story for an anthology that I love the sound of and I really hope the publisher likes it.

Love it! This draft ended dead on 4000 words 😁

I’m not going to get much else done today. Once I’ve written this post I’m going to go out and make a start on sorting the garden out with my folks, and then after that I’m going to put me feet up for a few hours. I have an early start tomorrow, so I’d like to get a good nights sleep before hand.

Yesterday I got to work early as I needed to do a bit of shopping and thankfully the queues weren’t long so I had a nice twenty minutes to kill before work. So I made some notes on a short story that I wrote a long time ago that I’d like to expand into an novella. I’m getting some good thoughts on this one. I’ve not reread it yet, I want to make as many notes as I can before looking back through it. I’m liking this as I’m hoping it’ll give me an insight to the story I think I’ve written and I’ll see how my memory serves when I start reading it properly.

Right, time to get dressed and get started on the garden. I am out of shape and this will likely point out just how unfit I!

Have a great day, folks!

24th February 2021 (2)

Hey folks! Only about 400 words this morning. I had a few non-writing matters to see to, and I had a morning where I’m reminded of how good I can be at procrastination!

I have left the vampire story (that I’m still working on!) in a good place for when I look at it tomorrow.

I’m off work tomorrow but have a garden to start sorting out so I won’t be doing a lot of writing, but there will be time for word wrangling.

Right, off to work in a bit, have an awesome day folks!

I still love this poster from last years NaNoWriMo. I’ve got it above my desk so I just have to look up and get a touch of inspiration ☺️

Good Morning, 24th February 2021

Hey folks, how are we all doing today?

I’m not feeling as energised as I have been, and I’m writing this much later than yesterday for example. Something I do when I’m at work when customers ask me how I am I’d say ‘I’m good thanks, I’m always good me,’ It gets some laughs and it generally is true. Even when I’m feeling down I’ll try and snap myself out of it, because it doesn’t help anybody. I know it’s easier said than done. If you’ve been following my blog for a while you’ll know I was finding things very difficult last summer, and it’s been a journey and a half to get to where I am now, and its a journey that will never have a destination. Because I learn and grow with each day, each challenge. I’m not letting myself hold me back any longer.

We have the potential to be great. Both on an individual level and as a species. Now, with the state of humanity in this day and age I think it’s going to be difficult for us to achieve that greatness, but as individuals. There’s nothing stopping us. Even when we get knocked down, we get up, and brush ourselves off.

On a recent episode of the Mando Method Armand Rosamilia said about me that I’m always moving forward, even when I’m taking steps back I’m moving forward. That’s what we all need to be trying to do. If we have to take a few steps back, its not a defeat, its a way of moving forward because we might not be quite ready for that next step. It’s like the timing of a pass in a football game. If you play it too early the recipient might not be in a prime position to take a shot. Sometimes stepping back is about being patient.

Right, I’m going to get a little writing/editing done before the day job. I hope you all have a great day, folks!

23rd of February 2021

Hey folks!

I’ve written 1155 words today. I’m not counting words edited as I counted those in yesterday’s count.

I have not finished this episode! 🤬🤬😝🤣🤣 I did get to a point where I could split it into two, and I might still do that at some point, but for the moment I’m going to progress as is and worry about whether it needs splitting when I do my first edit pass of the completed draft.

I am going to admit that I’m not super happy with how this episode is, and I might rewrite it when I come to the edit pass, but that is something I want to avoid doing if at all possible. I’ve got the short story for a publisher to look at tomorrow before work, so I might leave the vampire stuff for a day and go back to it Thursday when I’m off work and see what I can do with it then.

Right, I’m gonna start getting sorted for work. I’m feeling good with word wrangling at the moment. This is the most productive I’ve been for some time and it feels good ☺️

Good Morning, 23rd February 2021

Good morning, folks. I’ve been awake about an hour and have slowly eased into my day. I’ve got work later on this afternoon/evening but plenty of time before then to get some words wrangled.

My primary target this morning is to get the episode(I’m calling the individual stories episodes as I’m thinking of this book as a TV series in that the episodes all connect one way or another and build to a conclusion) I was stuck on last night finished. I’m still a little miffed that I didn’t get it done yesterday, but it is what it is. Sometimes we have to step back and try again tomorrow. That’s what I decided yesterday and I will be even more miffed if I have to roll it over to tomorrow. Honestly, I’m beginning to have a real love/hate relationship with this story. It’s a vital park of the book, it’s a turning point and points the story towards the conclusion of the book. So I need to get it right, and so far it’s just one part in the middle of this particular episode that I’m struggling with.

One of our garden visitors ☺️

I do also need to get a story edited that I’ve written for a book I’ve been invited to submit to. I’ve got the first draft done and the next stage is to get a digital edit done. I’d like to have it done by the end of the month so I might prioritise that one tomorrow.

Right, I’m off to get some work done.

Have a great day, folks!