I’m just about to try and sleep, but am anxious because I didn’t sleep last night. I think I got maybe an hour or so. I did get some sleep during the day so I’m hoping that’ll help.

It’s weird because the night before I got my head down in good time, slept well, got up at a decent time and had a pretty decent day. Then last night it all went out the bloody window.

There’s this weird domino effect to it. I had a bad nights sleep, so I’m tired which then makes my anxiety worse. Then I start worrying about the anxiety being worse and that rolls into me doubting myself, which means I don’t do half of what I wanted to today. So now I’m feeling crap about wasting the day, which then brings my forth the doubts I have about myself to the forefront of my consciousness. Which is now running itself around my head, most likely causing more anxiety which’ll cause more problems sleeping, and the whole cycle starts again!

Anyway…..I’ve got a camomile tea ready to be drunk. Some squash for when I inevitably get thirsty in the middle of the night. I’m gonna do a little journaling as well.

I did do some editing on Penal Earth 2 this evening but not a whole lot.

I will just add that I am on medication for anxiety and have just started a Cognitive Behavioural Therapy course. So I’m working on learning how to live with and overcome these hurdles that my brain throws at me.