It is 8:37am and I am up and have had breakfast and have a cup of tea by my side. I am tired, I have a really bad back, and I’m still feeling down. I’m not going into why I’m feeling down, although I’m generally quite honest here there are some things I just don’t want to share here.
I’m feeling down, but I’m also feeling strangely okay. I can’t let the hard parts of my life get to me, I can’t. And this morning it feels like I’ve got enough to keep my mind occupied so I’m not just sitting feeling sorry for myself.
As I said yesterday, I’ve got a story that I’ll be submitting to an anthology by the end of the month. I’m going to get back onto Penal Earth, I know I should be working on the zombie book but I don’t have the cash for cover art and editing at the moment so I’ve still got a little more time for it. This is one that will be affected by Covid, not by much but I can integrate this pandemic into it in a way that it’s there but doesn’t change the story I’m telling. I’m not going to make it about the pandemic because that’s not what it was about.
I’ve got a list of pieces that I need to work on. Unless I see a submission call for something that tickles my attention I’m going to focus on what needs doing with what is already written.
Over today and tomorrow I’m going to look at my work schedule and see what time I can commit to writing and then map out the next week of writing. See how well I can do with planning and executing it.
Good morning! It sounds like the birds are singing happily outside today, I’ve ventured out yet but have work later on.
There’s not much for me to report writing wise. Few words have been written, but a short story has been submitted, had notes back and then sent back to the publisher. This is for an anthology I was invited to submit to.
I can’t remember if I mentioned but I did have a rejection a few weeks ago. It was disappointing but the story is one I love and takes place in my Penal Earth universe so I can always put it in a collection of stories from that setting.
Living in this locked down world is both strange and interesting. I changed jobs at the start of April (was in the process of before the lockdown was even spoken of) and am now working in a supermarket. So I’ve been going to work as normal, to a degree. But it’s both interesting and frustrating seeing how some people adhere to guild lines on social distancing and how others blatantly disregard those rules. We haven’t got a full lockdown here in the Uk, and I think more people should appreciate that.
That’s all for this morning. I had more I wanted to write but my brain’s decided to misfile they rest of it!
Stay safe everyone, if we keep our heads we can start getting back to a life without restrictions sooner. I’m not going to say back to normal because I’m honestly not sure that’ll happen. Not for some time anyhow.
So, I didn’t get up early and get a sweet word count start for the day. I dragged myself outta bed at the normal time (and I didn’t drag myself out, folks! I did not want to get up today). I did write 298 words on Extraction though. I’d have liked to got more down, but I wrapped the story up. I’m not happy with it, but it’s a case that I know I can do so much more with it. This was very much shot from the hip and as I wrote more ideas came into the world and I didn’t want to keep going back and adding a little bit here, a little bit there. I always feel it’s a bit clunky when I do that.
What I’m going to do now is print it off, read it (making the odd note) and then put it away. I’ve got plenty to work on in the meantime and when I’m ready I’ll go back to it and start gearing up for a deeper second draft.
I’m going back to my vampire book now. Hopefully writing Extraction has loosed the blocks I’ve been having with that project.
Good morning! Well, it’s another Sunday morning, the dog is snoring at my feet, and the cat is nowhere to be seen (probably stretched out on a bed somewhere). I can hear the birds singing in the garden but that is all the sound I can hear right now. I live in a rural area and this time of the morning on a Sunday is quite often very peaceful (as I said that a car went pelting up the road at a silly speed). Anyway, this last week has felt somewhat slow, writing wise. I’ve not written a huge amount of words but I have written everyday and have averaged about 300 words a day (I’m not including yesterdays words in that). So I’m pretty chuffed with that. It’s felt like an odd week where I haven’t got much work done, but I was quite pleased when I saw that I’d done that much this week.
This last week has seemed to have gone by in a flash, but aside from Wednesday when I had a Write-In, I’ve not had an especially busy one outside of the day job. That said though, I only really had Monday and Tuesday night’s to write. I did do a few words at the Write-In, but not many. My brother and his family have just moved house, so on Thursday night I helped him move a lovely sofa they have, which wasn’t easy but we got it out the old house and into the new one. That took a bit of doing. And then on Friday we moved the bulk of his furniture. So Thursday and Friday I didn’t get a lot written, but I wasn’t expecting to because of helping my brother out. Last night I just flaked out, but I did write 600+ words in the morning before I went to work.
This week I’ve got today to get some work done, and tomorrow is a bonus day. As it’s Easter Monday we get a Bank Holiday (same with Good Friday), so no day job. I’d like to have put a big dent into my FanFic piece. I’ve barely touched that this week and would like to make some serious progress with it. The majority of the work I’ve done this week has been on the short story I’ve been playing with. It’s over 3000 words now and I like a lot of it, although I’m not sure about how strong it is. It’s a story in Owen and my Assembly universe and at worst it’s a great character piece which is letting me flesh out a character we’ve got plans for in the future, and at best something we’ll put out one day, probably in a collection.
I am thinking through to NaNoWriMo a little. I know November is a long way off but it’ll be with us sooner than we know, and I’m seriously considering writing the zombie piece I’ve just done the primary outline for. I’m thinking of this story because I always assume I’m going to be able to do more than I can during a year. It’s about seven months till November and I’m not sure we’ll be able to get The Space Watch locked down by then, I’m also going to try and submit to some anthologies this year so I’d like a little time to be writing for them as well. I’ve also got one Assembly story I’m working on the outline for, and I’d like to get another couple of outlines done for next year. I’m also thinking like this as a way to start planning what I’m writing. I’ve tried to do that a couple of times but it doesn’t play out like that. Partly because I wasn’t outlining at all, or anywhere close to the depth of outline that I need to have. So, if I decide to do this zombie story for NaNo this year then I know I’ve got over six months to spend more time on the outline, I don’t think I need that amount of time but I’ll know what I’m doing and what time frames I’ve got to work with.
Having that amount of time will also give me time to work on any submission calls I come across, as well as some short stories I want to work on in addition to outlining and planning future pieces.
I’d love to be smashing out a thousand words a day and writing where the wind takes me, but I’ve been doing that for many years and it’s not working for me. I’m hoping this steadier, more prepared, approach will prove fruitful.
I had last off to go and see Transformers (yes, again) but back on it tonight. I’m part way through a story so I’ll be aiming to get that one wrapped up tonight. Most of last week was lost to a little ill health, nothing serious, so I’m biting at the bit to get stuck in again. I had a really productive day on Sunday which got me about halfway through with this red-penning run.
Yesterday I did have a couple of thoughts pop into my head about a few plot holes I have, so those need to be thought through and I need to find how to fix them.
I also realised that I may need to add in another story to cover an event from a different character’s point of view. If I do I’m not going to make it a long one; unless the story takes over I’m thinking it only needs to be 1500-2000 words, but I’ll see how I feel once I’ve finished the red-penning.
Today I’ve had a 2100 word morning which has wrapped up the short story I’ve been working on for my vampire collection. 6600 words in four days all in; which I’m really happy about. I’m quite happy with how this story went as well, despite the fact that it went off in a totally different direction to what I had, roughly, planned. As it did this it totally screwed up two other stories which happen later on. One of which has a first draft done, and is the last of the collection. The other one is just a rough synopsis at the moment but because of the events in the story I’ve just completed I’m not sure where I these two will go. The one that’s completed i could still use, but i think it’s not going to be in this collection. The other one will take some adjusting of the synopsis but I think i can still make it work nicely.
Something I think these changes could benefit is that I can use this new story thread more down the line then I and originally planned. I feel like the characters who have messed up my plans have a real flip-side to them that’ll be a lot of fun to explore.
Evening all; this is just going to be a small, quick little post (so ignore all typos and other mistakes I’ve made).
I’ve already adjusted the order my vampire series so it fits better into the timeline. Thankfully I’ve only had to move two stories about and one of them doesn’t have anything in it which I’ve had to change to fit in better. It’s a pretty self sustained little story that one.
After going through the first of the collection on Sunday it occurred to me that I have a character that’s mentioned who docent appear anywhere else in the series, so I’ve fixed that.
What I’ve come to realise as I’m working my way through these is that I’m going to need to go over them all again and make sure the continuity is good and in building, and giving the characters some more depth in their back stories as well as getting the surrounding details accurate.
After loosing last night to writing 950 which I’ve trashed today I’m at least a day behind where I wanted to be and I think I’m going to have to revise my expectations a little as I’ve got more work to do. Scrivener is helping a lot; It’s made me think of the bigger picture and it’s giving me an easy way to make notes in the one file so when I come to need them I don’t have to go looking for them in different folders.
That’s enough rambling for one night. I’m going to dive into a book then bed. Come tomorrow evening I need to get dome plotting done.
Writing of late has not been easy. I’m struggling to get the words down and when I do I’m not happy with them. For a while now I’ve felt that I have lost something, something that was allowing me to put a story together seems to have been lost and I don’t know how I can get it back. I don’t know if it’s where I’m writing stories which are more complicated then I’m able to write or if it’s a case that my head isn’t in the right place to concentrate enough to put the words together in the right order and have a good story there once I’ve written the final word.
Maybe its even how I’m sitting and the environment around me. On Sunday (30-3-12) I was sitting at my desk all day and the words just would not come, and when they did they were really badly put together (probably much like how this blog post is). The last two nights (around a family meal out and a cinema trip) I’ve been writing with the laptop on my lap as I sit on my bed and the words have flowed a little easier.
I don’t know if its a lack of preparation that isn’t helping. When Chrystalyn and I are brainstorming for The Residents we’re going into a new level of detail that I have not even come close to thinking of till now. This is something that I need to transfer over to when Owen and I are working because knowing the details will help make putting the story together a whole lot easier I think.
With short stories I think I can get away with just writing and not having much of a plan but with anything over the 15k mark I think I need to learn how to plan it out and do all the research I may need to fill in the details that may come up in the story before I start writing.
I’m hoping that all of this will help in getting to a point where I can put a story together. I don’t know why over the last year or so I’ve been unable to get a story completed properly, it has felt like something in my head has broken or a skill been lost somewhere and I need to rediscover it. I’ll have time to try and find it though, Tracie and I ended our relationship last month, so I’m going to properly throw myself into my writing over the next few months. I’ve got Project Apollo with Owen and The Residents with Chrystalyn as my main focus points at the moment and maybe ten short stories that just need tidying up. I’d like to get back on Earth, After Liberation by the end of the year as well, but I’m not going to try and load myself up to much. I’m going to take each story as I go.
It feels like its been a long time since I’ve had the focus that I need to have for this. No more letting Facebook or Twitter distract me, it’s time to find my focus again.
Today at about midday I started feeling like I wasn’t myself, at first I thought I was having a down day. One of those days where that manic depressive side of me took over and the weight of life was almost too much for me to handle. Then I thought it as just fatigue, that a good nights sleep would solve this crappy mood I found myself in (at one point I was walking around with my fists clenched). Tracie (my girlfriend suggested that I had a night off and get some rest but I said to her that I needed to write tonight as I hadn’t written anything for a few days now. That is when it struck me, I needed to write, I was having withdraw symptoms and I didn’t feel any better until I had got some work done tonight. So I got writing and finished the1st draft of Project Peregrine 😀
At times this afternoon I felt as if someone had pulled my soul from within me and dangled it above my body for five hours. It as like I wasn’t here and I couldn’t get back to my body, but I’m okay now 🙂
I also need to get back into reading again, I’ve not done much recently which is a tad annoying. I’m still reading The Drawing Of The Three by Stephen King and there’s a couple of short stories I have on my Kindle App that I want to read this month as well. That said, I’m off to do some reading 🙂